Support a Brave Mother Facing Eviction and Illness

“”I heard to prove that no storm can hold back Jesus from saving you. To prove to you that no human being can do what the Son of God can do for you. To prove that no amount of money can fix only what Jesus can fix. To prove you that no relationship can heal or love or satisfy the way Jesus can heal and love you. The same storm that terrified the Disciples submitted to the King of all Kings to walk on water. Jesus was walking to them calmly saying “DO NOT BE AFRAID” showing His mighty power in a way that they have never seen before. Through the storm, you see God’s power. Like you’ve never seen before. He is in our situation. He is not going to allow you to drown when you call His name. God knows my heart. He knows what’s on the inside””

Listen… what I say online and post doesn’t always reflect my life. People say I look happy or I am doing financially okay. But no, unfortunately I am struggling with it all. Especially right now. My strength isn’t something I’m fully proud of. It’s build on a lot of pain and survival. I say how I feel 100%. My life isn’t easy.

No I don’t actually get help from family. Only a couple hours from my mom after work. But even that comes at an angle. Police getting called on me because my mom doesn’t approve of me trying to live my own life and raise my kids a certain way. If Sergey was here he would tell you. It’s hard to keep my head up, but by God’s Grace I do. I’m His warrior daughter. Somehow I always felt that, but tonight I prayed and heard His mighty voice. He won’t let me give up.

Sadly, since 12.4.22 it all changed. Parallel universe. I guess family only is significant when the other person is alive. Friends? They’re there. But being there won’t help me pay the bills unfortunately.

I pay my own bills. No I’m not on drugs and I’m not an alcoholic. I have about 5 severe disabilities. Yes, actually legally disabled person with state record of it. But I don’t get paid for those. I feel horrible for even applying for that. I feel like the world beat me to my knees and I can’t even move. But I have to get up myself somehow. For my kids and me. For what we stood for and swore to each other holding hand against hand in a trust bond.

Why I’m here? Asking for help. It’s not easy. My friends suggested I do this. So I guess here we go.

Financially I’m struggling. Mentally it’s hard because my body needs multiple surgeries and I had to postpone three serious ones already multiple times. Tumors (one active and one not), arthritis, severe migraines, thyroid and anemia, wisdom teeth all 4 require immediate extraction, umbilical hernia, ptsd, adhd, ocd, 2 dislocated discs in my back, anxiety severe, narcolepsy and several more is what I live with daily. And on top of all this, every single surgery is life-threatening, considering my blood type is so insanely rare. I am one of the 5%-15% of the human beings in the world, yes WORLD population to have it. Look it up. “The golden blood”, I can literally save anyone with my blood type, but no one can save me unless it’s rh negative. It’s actually deadly to receive any other blood type but mine.

I’m a young mama who been through hell and back 7 times. So if you wanna say anything, make sure you walked the same path I have and been through everything I been through. But I have to ask for help. I have a big heart and I have always done it all for everyone in my life, without any expectations. It’s who I am.

I haven’t had a day for me in almost 6 years. And somehow I got side tracked with my health, kids, dogs and bills and now months behind on rent and all bills. Eviction has been served in superior court January 25. They scheduled the hearing for the day of 12.4.2024. Please tell me that’s not intentional since it is the day Sergey grew wings being 2 years that day. Also because the property we rented at, Aspire One, are harassing, racially threatening, housing law violating and wanted us gone. We had an agreement in court on the fourth that if I was gonna move out by December 31, 2024, then they would not put a eviction on my record and also if I remove their name off of my GoFundMe. Well, obviously that didn’t happen considering it’s a little hard to pack and get everything moved by myself alone. The entire time I’ve been qualifying for new places to rent and no luck. So what difference is it with eviction or without? And also, why would Aspire One ask me to remove their name of GoFundMe if what I was saying, wasn’t the truth? Talk about my First Amendment Right….Everyone I knew that lived at this property, as long as I (10 years) before this new company took over has moved away and hates the new company. They only want money and they don’t care about anything else or their old units fall apart, foundation cracking, mold in the walls and illegal activities happening all in their parking lots every single day and night. Great example of this exact situation is while I was moving, I asked for help moving two of my motorcycles and they were stolen from the garage. Two Yamaha R6 and still no luck in locating.

Back story: I was cut off food stamps & cash benefits around July 2024. Since then it’s been a downfall. Our renewal which raise a rate intensely happened at that time too. And believe me, I tried to work with him and ask for a payment plan being only $200 or some short. And of course, response was “no”. For those of you who see in numbers I received $750 in stamps and $650 in cash monthly. That paid my credit cards, loans, etc. However, since then only money coming in is the kids survivor benefits from their dad passing away. Plus my rent increased. I don’t qualify for low income. No financial help or section 8. I have no family or friends to move in with. I can’t move and get a new place that’s cheaper because I haven’t worked since my son was born. However, the entire time I was Sergey’s driver to and from work and back, even with the kids in the car when they were born both of them. As well as to all the doctors appointments and treatment… I became his caretaker 24/7. I have a bachelors from CWU in Business Administration. Before I was a Commercial Real Estate Agent, Marketer, and a creative soul. So it’s not like I’m asking for help because I’m lazy. I have been a hard worker my entire life. But now my health and no help is taking me down.

For those of you who don’t know. Sergey had an addiction. Not only to gutters and motorcycles. He had severe epilepsy. He was taken away suddenly and without any notice, due to blood poisoning. No not alcohol. Surprised right? So was I when I went to Swedish and found that out.

I came home and dropped to my knees. He was revived 7 times. I looked at my son, who I promised I’d come home to with dad. I didn’t know what to say. I still don’t know. But I know my kids told me that they see an angel. He looks like dad. At first they were scared. I remember the first time. I had chills all over my body and cried myself. At first I didn’t believe, but it’s when my son said “mama dad’s knees and legs hurt. He’s trying to fly though. He’s okay.” No one told them about his life long pain in his legs. Only he could have told them. Sergey was our main provider, bringing in about $6000+ a month. Now I’m at $3400 and that’s it. My rent alone at Aspire was $3000. So that’s why I am crying out for help and holding my breath while trying to not give up. I’m being harassed by not only back then the apartment itself, but as well as police and as well as services taking advantage of the situation thinking I’m a bad mom. I’m a great mom and that’s why I don’t hide the truth. I tell it how it is and what happened with documentation to prove it if needed. And I won’t stop or give up until my kids are safe and happy and we have a place of our own that we can go home to without any threats and or harassments.

I got behind on rent because the maintenance at Aspire One installed our dryer wrong, and it caught fire. Burned everything in the laundry room. Costing me $4000 out of pocket to clean up and make up, even though was promised Red Cross and said I have insurance. I do, but oddly enough called and was told they don’t have my unit on record. So what am I paying for? I also have contacted Red Cross right after that and asked if Aspire One contacted them, I was told no but if they did, they would’ve helped right away. My kids and I were not supposed to have been there, but we had no choice but to stay in smoke and damage. This lead us to getting sick, us all and including my dogs threw up for almost half a week due to smoke and respiratory poison. ER and Doctor visited. There is also mold damage too. While parked, I had my car broken into and $5000 stolen and damaged during mid day and no one saw or said anything. Not only mine however, but also a packed full of construction tools box truck.

Police here don’t think it’s enough to pursue my case though. Yet they’re here daily spying on me and accusing of having another person over because of a DV situation which would have been dropped and was a misunderstanding but others had to intervene. So now I’m followed and watched but not in the good way, our unit was entered without notice (door was unlocked & camera turned off in front), mine and my kids safety was disregarded as well as our service dogs and my disabilities. Photos of my garage and unit taken by Aspire while having no right and while they worked on another unit request. Oh did I also mention that all of their walkways and railings are rotted out to the point where my son almost fell and hurt himself from the second floor? I wasn’t gonna let that happen, but I’m gonna tell the truth now about this place.

I have no savings. I have no help. And my body is deprived of everything. I am still here and no, suicide has not crossed my mind nor will it. I’m still standing and I’ll be here till tomorrow, as I say. I won’t let my kids live the way I did. They shouldn’t have to suffer in a world who belongs to no man yet has to make a mama who gives it her all to everyone, fall and become homeless all because of the root of all evil — money.

If you can….please pray, if you can… please help financially. I’m trying. I really am but it’s so scary especially now with my disabilities, no help and 1 day to go here. Thank you all from the bottom of God’s army falling angels warrior heart, in advance.

Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!

Luke 1:45

“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you”. 

Isaiah 43:2

Proverbs 3:5-6– “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God l mlp's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.”

Proverbs 31:25: "She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come."

It’s very hard for me to start of something like this for my children and I.

For those of you that know me, you know I’m a giver, that’s what everybody always told me. I’m always that one person. I will always show up when you need me when you call. Even when we haven’t spoken in ages, because life got too busy, I’m always gonna show up whenever someone needs me.

Unfortunately with my story it’s not the other way around. Sergey, gifted me two of the most beautiful gifts for the rest of my life: my son and my daughter, my son who is three and my daughter who is two. She was only three months when her daddy passed away. My son, aka little man/noodle man took it the hardest and still is, his dad was his best friend. My late fiancé had no life insurance policy unfortunately. He also had severe epilepsy, and the things we seen…all three of us, my children and I, will always be a nightmare. 26 long minute seizures, three a row. And one seizure, particularly, while Sergey was rocking two month baby Rosie caused him to drop her on hardwood floor while I went to go to the bathroom. Resulted in Rosie’s linear head fracture to her brain and head. It still haunts me daily, and seeing my son flipping dad over so he doesn’t choke while

jn seizure. Rosie thankfully by God’s Grace was okay even with that severe injury and bleeding near brain. But it took a toll on Sergey, on us all. He never forgave himself but it was no one’s fault as the ICU nurse said at Children’s when the ambulance brought us. Our Rosie is the strongest little warrior! And my son is the golden heart and pure protector of our family. Sergey always said that I’m a queen and I deserve the world for what I give to everyone, he said I was his saving angel. Unfortunately the situation took a heartbreaking turn into his addiction. He suffered and fought hard, but God said it was time. I left my home to the ICU in cold December of 2022 with a temperature myself of 102, and promised I’ll bring daddy home…

Kids and I have no financial help, if any, impossible to keep up with all the bills, late payments and collections. One thing my late fiancé, Sergey, and I promised each other is to give our family - our family - a new start, new traditions, generations break. However, it’s hard on my own to accomplish all of that and pay for everything being in situation myself….where I require three surgeries which I cannot even schedule due to not having enough support or help. As well as the unit fire, car break in, threats, harassment and racial profiling, as well as no feeling of safety, and much more to now losing my home because of non payments and a situation I am blamed for but not at fault for nor did not have any knowledge of.

Just know, it’s very hard for me to even reach out to the community and ask for a dollar because I feel guilty. I have a Bachlors degree from CWU, worked hard my entire life since I was 16. I’m a very passionate and creative person. Then I decided in taking care of another human when I met Sergey. I made him see that faith exists and he can overcome his addiction and struggles. He became an initial focus of my life, through tears and every emotion, he blessed me two children and a lifetime of part of a broken heart…My children are my world and my drive to keep going and to get back up. We do not qualify for SNAP, unfortunately due to the kids receiving Survivor benefits, however it’s not even enough to keep up and still be a mom and still go out and enjoy my children. Building a new life and keeping that promise.

I can barely keep up with my health as I’m already dragging on my last breath. I’m not trying to sound pity or hey, you should support me because I can’t pay for anything. No, I’m just struggling very hard behind, and I’ve been working my absolute every organ in my body to make things work by staying up late, selling my things, doing everything to provide and give the absolute everything I can to my kids.

I am grateful to the few special people in my life that have been helping any way they can. Just because you see me smiling doesn’t mean my soul is smiling... Sergey would say “you got this. I know you can do it for the kids. Just be there for them” and if he stood in front of you today, he would say: “you are all beautiful people, and the world is your oyster”.

Please help my children and I to get out of this apartment. There is no sense of community, tenant appreciation, respect, protection and human understanding.

Every dollar will go toward that only. Even a prayer is worth a million dollars to us.

We thank you sincerely from the bottom of our hearts and around the moon and to the infinity and beyond.

We miss you Sergey, you never stopped fighting for us and watching over. Until death and beyond. We miss you every second of the day and night. Dogs miss you too. Especially Mojo.

We are only human. And it’s okay to ask for help. -a quote I heard that made me decide to post this and ask.