WARNING VERY TRANSPARENT LONG POST: ⛔️ ⚠️ ‼️ So… I’ve been back & forth a million and one times about when I was going to come out and tell the world some devastating news. I didn’t want to tell it too early, or too late, didn’t have the words to even say because I was just in total shock Well… some time ago probably about 2 years ago I started feeling some weird feeling in my left breast and it kept aching and getting annoying so I ignored it, fast forward to this year it just kept getting worse so I called the doctor and requested a mammogram. Of course that was a red flag because of my age, mind you I’m only 28‼️ So first I had a regular doctors appointment to make sure they could feel what I was feeling (and they did), so I was referred to have a breast ultrasound (came back very abnormal and they found 2 masses, one which was under my arm). I was then scheduled to have a breast biopsy (a small procedure where they go in and take tissue cells from the masses to test them for cancer). I received a call back just 2 days later to confirm that not only did I have breast cancer in my left breast, but that it also spreaded to my lymph nodes and it was VERY aggressive (stage 2 approaching 3 very fast).

That was some hard news to take considering I have 5 little people depending on and NEEDING their mommy The next couple weeks were doctors appointments at the hospital for Breast MRIs, Mammograms, CT scans, Bone scans (to make sure it hadn’t spread anywhere else)(it didn’t thank God), Genetic testing to make sure it’s not in my genes and wouldn’t be passed to my kids(all negative thank God)!! I’m really trying to figure out why in the world he would chose ME out of ALLLLL people?? Like why me? What lesson am I learning from this? I feel like I’m eventually going to be forced to be a girly girl with the hair/wigs, lashes etc. I’m literally going to have to embrace my natural EVERYTHING ! What are you trying to get me to see? I also question how long exactly I’ve had it? But when I come to think about it I’ve always felt it for a while just ignored it because I thought it was clogged milk or something from having babies. Mind you my last two babies were back to back. 2 & 1, and I’ve felt it since I had my daughter who is now 2 months shy of turning 3 years old. I’m just sooo glad I finally stop pushing it off and went to get it checked because lord knows if I would’ve kept waiting what would’ve happened!!

But then here comes all the treatment..

I have to go through 20 weeks of chemo. Because it’s so aggressive I have to have the strongest chemo that they have often referred to as the “RED DEVIL”️ & another chemo together. I have those for 4 cycles (every 2 weeks). Good news is I’M HALFWAY DONE WITH THE FIRST 4 chemo sessions I had my first 2, I have 2 more to go before I have to go 12 WEEKS STRAIGHT getting the 3rd chemo medicine then after my 20 weeks of chemotherapy is done, I’ll move on to radiation ☢️ for at least 6 weeks (Monday-Friday), after that it’s surgery time

SIDE EFFECTS:

So far my worst side effect from the chemo is the headaches and fatigue ‍ My hair follicles are starting to loosen also because when I grab even a little bit of hair it’s coming out eventually everything with hair will be completely LOST‼️Hair , eyebrows, lashes, etc. Everyone’s journey is different but ultimately it just a part of it. Loss of appetite (which I’m not struggling with now too bad only sometimes right after chemo could happen), vomiting etc.

SURGERY:

I will have to get a DOUBLE MASTECTOMY (yes both breast bye bye )… good news after recovery from that I can have breast reconstruction (new tatas)

DONATIONS:

I’m going to have to be out of work once I get my double mastectomy for 6 weeks, after recovering from that I’m going to have to have ANOTHER surgery right after for my breast reconstruction (another 6 weeks out of work) because they are not doing both at the same time. While some jobs will give you short term disability and pay you while you’re out it’ll only be a percentage of what you make and not only that they have a LIMIT within a 12 month period, so with me having to have two major surgeries they won’t cover me for both. If we don’t know anything else, we know that life keeps rolling no matter what you’re going through and bills still have to get paid. So any and every donation to help me along the way of this LONG journey will be gladly appreciated

RECOVERY: ❤️‍

It’s going to be a LONNNNGGG journey for not only me, but also for all of my family, friends & everyone else around me. I’m in GREAT spirits now because I’ve accepted things for what they are and I’m just trusting God because I know that I’m COVERED As long as I’m physically able to, I’m going to continue to live my life like I have been, exercising, doing things with my kids etc. I hope and pray that I can continue to do these things the whole time but only time will tell. BREAST CANCER is now a part of my story/journey, I will not let it take my joy or my purpose, I’m so grateful for everyday that I have and to know that I’m not fighting this alone! All I have to say is be KIND you literally NEVER know what people are going through behind closed doors and how many people have to laugh to keep from crying. So if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it at all I’m most definitely finna whoop CANCERS ASS‼️

The hardest part about me telling the world wasn’t that I had Breast Cancer, it was the fact that I didn’t want to look vulnerable & weak, nor even ask for anything ‍♀️ but sometimes you just never know who could be looking up to you, who’s watching you, who can help/offer resources, who YOU COULD BE HELPING BY TELLING YOUR STORY & who can relate‼️ I hope that my story inspires others to keep going no matter what life throws at you, not to give up & to PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR BODY. If you feel like something is off don’t hesitate to go to the doctor️️

#FAITHOVERFEAR