My name is Sara, I’ve been a registered nurse for over 20 years. In those years I was a surgical, GI and hospice nurse. I lost both parents at a young age and drank alcohol to numb the pain at night just to fall asleep and be able to help grieving families with what I had gone through losing loved ones. I was recently diagnosed with cirrhosis and I’m 46yrs old with an amazing husband and 4 children. I can no longer work because of the disease even though I stopped drinking a while ago. I am applying for disability but may not get it because of my age. The symptoms I’m already experiencing from this disease has a life expectancy of 1-2yrs according to the Mayo Clinic. We are living off my husbands income and he is an EMT. Texas pays EMTs not enough to live off of. I know people will judge me for what I have done to myself and asking for help. Believe me I have more guilt than anyone could shame me for and doing this, asking for help makes me sick to my stomach. I always helped everyone else. I just don’t know what else to do.