Stability and Focus

I don't know who I'm writing this for exactly, and I feel humbled to have to write it at all. I'm not good at asking for help but I'm at a point where I must. Throughout my life I've struggled and couldn't really explain why. I've had anxiety of different sorts and I've certainly experienced depression.

During the pandemic, I lost the house I'd been renting. Various factors led to this but ultimately my mental health played a large role. Since then, I've continued to face challenges and my emotional state became more and more fragile. It got to a point where I couldn't work and I wondered if this was something I'd have to accept or something that could change.

I came to a realization that I needed to seek help and also to make my mental health and healing a priority. I think that has to be my focus and then things will fall into place in a new calmer way.

While I'm willing to lose it all in order to get better, I certainly don't want to. I've been without my dog for over 2 years now, and it's truly the littlest things about having a home that I miss. My household possessions and all sentimental items have been in storage now for 28 months. The car is a convenience that sure makes it easier to take the actions I need to. I've held things together, just barely, but I'm at the end of a frayed rope.

I don't know if I should write less or more. Please know if you are able to help that I am so grateful as I don't know what else to do to keep things on track, or to get myself back on my feet.

Thank you.

I'll write more if I'm able to edit this later.