Spiritual Growth Trip To Bali - 27th Birthday

wow I can’t believe I’m even writing this welp ... here it goes

I believe when something is weighing so heavy on you, the best thing to do is face it head on. This past year, in fact, the last three years of my life since 2016 when a tragic senseless act of violence  ended in the murdering of my 21 year old brother Jamal Gaines, has been a consistent spiritual battle.

The first quarter of this year was extremely hard for me. I was struggling with self worth, career path, suicidal thoughts, addiction, depression and the list can go on and on. However I’m not here for a pity party, in fact I don’t need to hear how strong I am or how proud I’m making people.

What I really want is to be is FREE, what does it mean to be free one may ask. FREE/FREEDOM for me means to completely surrender to what is happening inside and around you to obtain the light on life.

After having the opportunity to travel to Tulum Mexico during the first quarter of the year I realized what I wanted to become FREE from. Which is my traumatic past experiences, generational curses, the sins of my father, and toxic (verbally and physically) abusive relationships that still weigh very heavy on me.
When I returned back to America I had a clear understanding and I was very excited to start my spiritual journey. Only to quickly find out that this would be one of the hardest, ugliest, most painful yet liberating, calming, and wonderful experiences I would go through.

I found a therapist who was literally God sent and helped me so much through this on going process. One of the biggest lessons I learned from him was “sometimes you have to be in the dark to find the light”. Honeyyyyyy child the dark was dark it was pitch black and I knew this was exactly where I needed to be in order to get the FREEdom I wanted.
Along with finding my therapist I also found a very special gift ... YOGA and Meditation!

Fast Forward to present day I practice yoga, meditation and breathe work almost everyday. I’m more mindful of my mental health and my addictive habits. I have been in control and overall I’m standing in my light again. I successfully curated two different community events for my non- profit organization in honor of my brother. Not every day is peaches and cream. I still find myself crying in the shower, or scrolling on Instagram comparing myself to complete strangers.

Speaking of Instagram sometimes it definitely has its benefits, and today is one of those days.
As I was doing my normal scroll I came across a page @peopleofcultureretreats I saw that they are having a retreat coming up in Bali. Checked the dates it’s literally my birthday weekend, October 1th-9th I almost fainted because I was literally having conversations about Bali. Maybe everyday I talk about how bad I want to go.

My friends keep asking me “what do you want to do for your birthday?” To be honest I really don’t like celebrating my birthday since the passing of my brother because I don’t feel like it’s fair.

I want to go to Bali for my birthday to continue on my spiritual growth, work on balance/ breathe work, and heal my throat chakra.

Like I stated earlier I don’t want a pity party, I want a spiritual growth party. I hope this has sparked something in you to help me reach my goal to get to Bali for my 27th Birthday. There are two spots left and I’m manifesting one of them! 

- Love and Light ❤️
Divinity G. 

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heres some photos from my journey this past year !