Hi everyone! I'm not entirely sure what to write, this was just recommended to me and I've never even considered starting a gofundme before. Money raised will go to moving costs and nothing else.

The situation is that I'm a single mother to a beautiful 6 year old (and my daughter's only parent, financially as well as in general), and we live with my parents. My parents are very conservative evangelicals who flood the home with fox News and conservative talk radio, as well as the barely disguised bigotry, racism, misogyny, and classism that comes with it. They are constantly trying to indoctrinate my child into their religious conservatism as well. There are big and small problems, but I'll start with the most important.

The big problems are the emotional and financial abuse. My stepdad doesn't speak to me unless he's angry, he's said awful things to me about being a terrible mother and a disappointment to the whole family, and done really horrible things like punched my dog in the face for barking outside. The most abusive thing though has got to be the multiple times he has tried to kick me out of the house on the spot, no notice, and the only reason my mom talked him out of it was because she realized that I would in fact not be leaving my daughter with them. They did this once to try to get me to go THAT DAY to inpatient psychiatric care for 2 months, which my psychiatrist said I did NOT need (they want everyone to be "fixed"and big emotions, good or bad, are entirely unwelcome). They are also trying to heavily indoctrinate my daughter into their religion; I have to have conversations with her constantly to try and undo what she's been taught.

If you care to know more about the smaller stuff, my parents have cameras EVERYWHERE including pointing into my bedroom from the backyard. My stepdad sits at work and monitors the cameras the entire time and they check every single notification from all 6-7 cameras, and they text me about every little thing they see. Despite the fact that I pay them rent, I have zero privacy or control over my space, they don't even knock and go through my stuff constantly. I also cannot have anyone over in my space after midnight (despite it being completely impossible for them to hear anyone from their completely opposite side of the house, and my work schedule ending quite late). But ultimately, these are the minor problems.

I'm really struggling emotionally right now. I'm on constant cptsd high alert in this house, everytime I hear the key in the door or the garage door open, my chest tightens up and my pulse increases. Everytime I get a text from my parents my heart drops. I never feel safe or relaxed here, ever. I'm always waiting for the silent treatment from my stepdad to erupt into months of him being silently angry, about the most innocuous things constantly, coming out at me because I asked him to let me handle disciplining my daughter or something. I had a rough childhood and then suffered more abuse as an adult, and while I've come a very long way from where I was 7 years ago, I have completely stalled out on my healing journey and can feel myself sliding backwards lately. My stress and anxiety levels are through the roof and I cannot relax.

I really struggle with asking for help, but I'm getting desperate. I'm unhappy, my dog is an anxious mess from my stepdad yelling at him all the time and their dog attacking him, and my daughter has to deal with a wound tight mother, and even though I try not to let it affect her, it does. Kids are much more emotionally intelligent than they are given credit for, and I don't want to be this way around my kid. I'm working all I can at 3 companies, but with the rise in prices here it will still be months before I can afford to get us a small place with a little backyard. I figure with first and last months rent, security deposit, pet deposit, and moving costs, I'll need at least $5000 to make this work. The sooner I get there, the sooner I can get out of this toxic mess.

I expect nothing to come of this, but man would I appreciate any help at all. I appreciate you just for taking the time to read this. ✌️ and ❤️