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Hey everyone,
Well, this is absolutely one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I have tried to sit down and write something for months now, but it's definitely time. So let me start way back at the very beginning. Well, at least back to the diagnoses. I didn't feel too good back in October 2019. I have always dealt with chronic lower back pain and have been in and out of doctors offices for years. But something was different. I was having an ache in my chest when I would sneeze. It was very bothersome, so I decided to go to my primary doc. She ordered some x-rays. The x-ray showed multiple shadows/nodules in my right lung. The doc prescribed some antibiotics to clear up any potential infection/pneumonia that might be there. Another week or so passed after all my antibiotic was done and I came back for a follow up Xray. The lung densities were still there plus some pleural effusion on my right lung.
I was sent to a lung specialist who did more tests. Xrays/CT/Bronchoscopy. Still monitoring and dosed me another week of antibiotic. I called into the office concerned that I had a slight cough and shortness of breath. They did another Xray & I needed to have the liquid taken out from my lung as there was more than the previous Xray. The doctor did a tap on my right lung & ordered cytology of the fluid.
On Dec 17 2019 I was called in to go over the results. I was told I have cancer. I was told its lung cancer, stage 4.
I cannot even describe the emotions that I was feeling when I was told I have stage 4 cancer. I'm 30 years old. My mom died when I was 11 to lung cancer. She was a heavy smoker and in my thoughts lung cancer happens that way. I have never smoked nor wanted to for good reason. I am a mother and have a daughter who is now 11, her name is Madilyn. I love her more than anything in the world. Maddy has type 1 diabetes(she was diagnosed at 4 years old) which my dad had as well. He passed away before I turned 18.
I believe emotional trauma can cause disease. I believe I never dealt with my trauma & maybe that's how this happened. I always kept things in & now my body is hurting. This is going to be the hardest journey I have ever faced. I need to heal emotionally, spiritually and physically. I know the power of my mind & the strength I hold but I'm going to need all of your support to do this. To heal from the inside out. I have a lot of plans for the future and I want to be here for my daughter. I want to see her grow up. She deserves that much. I never really got to know my mom & I don't want that for Maddy. Nobody knows how much time they have left to live & show love to the ones they care about. I have a lot of love to give & I'm no where near ready to give up. This is just the beginning of the rest of my life.
So far I have had 6 rounds of chemotherapy along with immunotherapy. My latest PET scan from May 2020 shows slight progression. With a nodule on my thyroid and upper abdominal area. I'm having a biopsy done this week on my thyroid to see if its cancer or not. The nodule in my abdomen according to my doctor is too small/hard to reach. She recommends we switch protocols & try two new chemo drugs. I don't want to start that without first going for a second opinion(s). I was so scared & overwhelmed when first diagnosed that I jumped into treatment right away. I'm not doing that again. I need to get opinions from other doctors who might be able to offer me more hope along my journey with this cancer. Like clinical trials & alternative options that may be available to me.
With your generosity & love any donations will go towards my treatment(s) costs/living expenses/travel/basic bills and putting food on the table. It's really hard to ask for help but I know there are some very kind souls out there & I'm forever thankful for anyone who is willing to help me.
If you can please also share my story so it can reach as many people as possible. I need all the support I can get. I will make sure to keep you updated on my treatment and plan of action. Please pray & send all the positive vibes my way. I need them more than ever. From my heart to yours thank you so much. XO
Well, this is absolutely one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I have tried to sit down and write something for months now, but it's definitely time. So let me start way back at the very beginning. Well, at least back to the diagnoses. I didn't feel too good back in October 2019. I have always dealt with chronic lower back pain and have been in and out of doctors offices for years. But something was different. I was having an ache in my chest when I would sneeze. It was very bothersome, so I decided to go to my primary doc. She ordered some x-rays. The x-ray showed multiple shadows/nodules in my right lung. The doc prescribed some antibiotics to clear up any potential infection/pneumonia that might be there. Another week or so passed after all my antibiotic was done and I came back for a follow up Xray. The lung densities were still there plus some pleural effusion on my right lung.
I was sent to a lung specialist who did more tests. Xrays/CT/Bronchoscopy. Still monitoring and dosed me another week of antibiotic. I called into the office concerned that I had a slight cough and shortness of breath. They did another Xray & I needed to have the liquid taken out from my lung as there was more than the previous Xray. The doctor did a tap on my right lung & ordered cytology of the fluid.
On Dec 17 2019 I was called in to go over the results. I was told I have cancer. I was told its lung cancer, stage 4.
I cannot even describe the emotions that I was feeling when I was told I have stage 4 cancer. I'm 30 years old. My mom died when I was 11 to lung cancer. She was a heavy smoker and in my thoughts lung cancer happens that way. I have never smoked nor wanted to for good reason. I am a mother and have a daughter who is now 11, her name is Madilyn. I love her more than anything in the world. Maddy has type 1 diabetes(she was diagnosed at 4 years old) which my dad had as well. He passed away before I turned 18.
I believe emotional trauma can cause disease. I believe I never dealt with my trauma & maybe that's how this happened. I always kept things in & now my body is hurting. This is going to be the hardest journey I have ever faced. I need to heal emotionally, spiritually and physically. I know the power of my mind & the strength I hold but I'm going to need all of your support to do this. To heal from the inside out. I have a lot of plans for the future and I want to be here for my daughter. I want to see her grow up. She deserves that much. I never really got to know my mom & I don't want that for Maddy. Nobody knows how much time they have left to live & show love to the ones they care about. I have a lot of love to give & I'm no where near ready to give up. This is just the beginning of the rest of my life.
So far I have had 6 rounds of chemotherapy along with immunotherapy. My latest PET scan from May 2020 shows slight progression. With a nodule on my thyroid and upper abdominal area. I'm having a biopsy done this week on my thyroid to see if its cancer or not. The nodule in my abdomen according to my doctor is too small/hard to reach. She recommends we switch protocols & try two new chemo drugs. I don't want to start that without first going for a second opinion(s). I was so scared & overwhelmed when first diagnosed that I jumped into treatment right away. I'm not doing that again. I need to get opinions from other doctors who might be able to offer me more hope along my journey with this cancer. Like clinical trials & alternative options that may be available to me.
With your generosity & love any donations will go towards my treatment(s) costs/living expenses/travel/basic bills and putting food on the table. It's really hard to ask for help but I know there are some very kind souls out there & I'm forever thankful for anyone who is willing to help me.
If you can please also share my story so it can reach as many people as possible. I need all the support I can get. I will make sure to keep you updated on my treatment and plan of action. Please pray & send all the positive vibes my way. I need them more than ever. From my heart to yours thank you so much. XO