Hi there everyone :) My situation is actually quite serious and while there may be some levity to my interactions, the truth is I have been under extreme psychological distress for two years. My independence was essentially taken from my when I was forced to move back home after I left my job due to moral reasons and after I began expressing suicidal ideations. However, these ideations became worse due to being robbed of any vestiges of my adulthood and made to be infantilized, physically and mentally abused, put in hand cuffs by my parent’s police friend for not conforming to strict household rules, and these occurrences along with the reliving of childhood trauma which involved forced religiosity in the house (even though I was abused by Catholic priests) led to suicide attempts and intense planning on how to end my life. I am a very wonderful, creative, and outgoing person in my life despite all the wrongs, and I finally felt like I had escaped my abusive parents at age 20 when I left to be on my own, but in the coming years I would experience a complete disrespect of boundaries, more psychological abuse, and actual harassment which culminated with them breaking into my apartment with the justification that I wasn’t “answering their calls” at age 30. Needless to say I am at the end of my rope, have pleaded for end of life organizations to accept me but denied because I don’t have a terminal illness. I wished I could go to Switzerland to end my life with the sarco pod technology that has recently become illegal. I don’t have access to a gun but have planned my hanging. I want to live but if it’s under my parent’s terms and in these abusive situations, I really don’t want to continue. They have said they would help me get started with a new apartment, but the one they have picked out is one where they have met the landlord and my father said he would continue to disrespect boundaries if I move because he’s a narcissist and controlling. I had so many beautiful creative projects I was working on in my 20s but they have all been surpressed now, labeled as “psycho” by my parents even though my art has been shown in galleries and I am a highly respected and accomplished individual among my peers. There’s no hope with them, and I feel trapped. I want an out, and if it has to be through me dying, I’ll take it. This gofundme is a last ditch effort to revive my once beautiful life through regaining my independence. I hope you will consider me, and you can follow my art @dannykubishta on Instagram. But I have been too depressed to make any recently. The stress is extreme and inhibiting.