**Ty's Freedom Surgery**
Donation protected
Hi there! My name is Tyler. I'm a typical guy working and going to school full time (video game programming). I'm your average dude....except there's something that makes me very special (at least I believe so). I'm a female to male transgender. I struggled with severe anxiety and depression up until I started testosterone (prescribed of course) back in August. I'm on my journey to being the happiest and healthiest me I have ever known. There's one piece missing. If you've never heard of dysphoria, I'm going to sum it up for you. It's awful. To me dysphoria makes it hard for me to look in the mirror and see my feminine chest and be able to leave the house. I wear binders to compress my chest. I sometimes cry myself to sleep and wonder why my body makes no sense to me.
My story is pretty simple and probably will sound the same as a lot of other transguys. Every since I was a kid (literally 3-4 years old) I've known I was a boy. I used to beg my mom to call me her son. Of course I didn't know or understand what 'transgender' meant until I was older. Even then I didn't really understand what it meant. I knew that it meant physically changing your body into the other sex. I just assumed this was always a very expensive process. Plus, I was raised in a christian home (Church every sunday, prayers before meals and bedtime etc.) so I always had this idea that taking matters into your own hands and changing your sex was a slap in the face to God. He doesn't make mistakes, right? True, but doctors do. And boy did mine get it wrong. Even my mom tried to tell everyone all along I was a boy. She even had a name picked out for me even though the doctors told her I'd be a girl. So when I came out a 'girl', she was surprised.
I spent my pre-pubescent childhood as boy that I knew I was. I played the boy roles in everything. I ran around without my shirt on. I insisted on wearing boys clothes. Things of the like.
When puberty hit, I was very distressed on the inside. I could no longer go without a shirt, I had to start wearing bras, I started my period etc. I was very uncomfortable and I didn't understand why my body was betraying me. I would dress in long sleeves and jackets even in the summer time in order to conceal my chest.
As I got older I started trying to assume more 'feminine' roles. I tried to dress more girly and dated boys. None of that felt right to me. When I was 19 I came out as a lesbian. I cut my hair off and started dressing strictly in boys clothes (and have every since). While this felt more suitable, I still didn't feel comfortable identifying as a 'lesbian'. As soon as I came out as a lesbian I started having severe anxiety and panic attacks. I spent the next few years after that suffering from this and if you experience any of those things then you know how awful it is. I didn't understand where it stemmed from and why it was happening so severly and what seemed to be all of the sudden.
Finally a few months ago, I stumbled across some ftm videos on youtube. From the very first one I watched, everything started to make sense. I related to every single one of these guys on a level I've never related to anyone. I knew right then and there this is what I wanted. This is who I am. I realized that starting testosterone wasn't as expensive as I once thought. Within two months of coming out to all my friends and family I was on testosterone and living full time as a male. I'm here to tell you, every since I injected my second shot, I've been anxiety free and panic attack free. I've never felt happier, I've never seen things so clear, and I've never looked at my future as being as bright as I do now.
I'm ready to take what I believe is my final step in my personal transition.
I've scheduled my top surgery with Dr. Garramone in Davie Fl for March 8th 2016. I have until Feburary 8th to finish raising the money. Some people may think this is unnecessary and be disgusted by my life, however, this is literally a life or death thing for me. I've been saving and continue to save. I just need a little help. I've exhausted all of my resources so I'm reaching out to anyone and everyone out there. I've set my goal at $7500. If I can just raise HALF of that it would help me tremendously.
I feel so fortunate to be where I am in my transition because I know there are guys out there that can't even get on t yet. I'm insipred by everyone that's on the same general journey that I'm on. I've helped when I could by donating to their various gofundme campaignes. When I couldn't afford to donate, I've shared them.
All I want is to be able to feel the breeze on my bare chest while strolling down the beach or hiking through the woods. I want to feel the water from the pool and the ocean. I was to feel the sting of a sunburn. Things that males typically take for granted, I'd give anything to experience.
Any donations would be greatly appreciated (more than I could ever tell you). I get that it's tough for everyone out there so if you can't donate then a simple share would be just as appreciated. I know I've learned and helped a lot of people out just by hearing from someone else.
Thanks
Ty
My story is pretty simple and probably will sound the same as a lot of other transguys. Every since I was a kid (literally 3-4 years old) I've known I was a boy. I used to beg my mom to call me her son. Of course I didn't know or understand what 'transgender' meant until I was older. Even then I didn't really understand what it meant. I knew that it meant physically changing your body into the other sex. I just assumed this was always a very expensive process. Plus, I was raised in a christian home (Church every sunday, prayers before meals and bedtime etc.) so I always had this idea that taking matters into your own hands and changing your sex was a slap in the face to God. He doesn't make mistakes, right? True, but doctors do. And boy did mine get it wrong. Even my mom tried to tell everyone all along I was a boy. She even had a name picked out for me even though the doctors told her I'd be a girl. So when I came out a 'girl', she was surprised.
I spent my pre-pubescent childhood as boy that I knew I was. I played the boy roles in everything. I ran around without my shirt on. I insisted on wearing boys clothes. Things of the like.
When puberty hit, I was very distressed on the inside. I could no longer go without a shirt, I had to start wearing bras, I started my period etc. I was very uncomfortable and I didn't understand why my body was betraying me. I would dress in long sleeves and jackets even in the summer time in order to conceal my chest.
As I got older I started trying to assume more 'feminine' roles. I tried to dress more girly and dated boys. None of that felt right to me. When I was 19 I came out as a lesbian. I cut my hair off and started dressing strictly in boys clothes (and have every since). While this felt more suitable, I still didn't feel comfortable identifying as a 'lesbian'. As soon as I came out as a lesbian I started having severe anxiety and panic attacks. I spent the next few years after that suffering from this and if you experience any of those things then you know how awful it is. I didn't understand where it stemmed from and why it was happening so severly and what seemed to be all of the sudden.
Finally a few months ago, I stumbled across some ftm videos on youtube. From the very first one I watched, everything started to make sense. I related to every single one of these guys on a level I've never related to anyone. I knew right then and there this is what I wanted. This is who I am. I realized that starting testosterone wasn't as expensive as I once thought. Within two months of coming out to all my friends and family I was on testosterone and living full time as a male. I'm here to tell you, every since I injected my second shot, I've been anxiety free and panic attack free. I've never felt happier, I've never seen things so clear, and I've never looked at my future as being as bright as I do now.
I'm ready to take what I believe is my final step in my personal transition.
I've scheduled my top surgery with Dr. Garramone in Davie Fl for March 8th 2016. I have until Feburary 8th to finish raising the money. Some people may think this is unnecessary and be disgusted by my life, however, this is literally a life or death thing for me. I've been saving and continue to save. I just need a little help. I've exhausted all of my resources so I'm reaching out to anyone and everyone out there. I've set my goal at $7500. If I can just raise HALF of that it would help me tremendously.
I feel so fortunate to be where I am in my transition because I know there are guys out there that can't even get on t yet. I'm insipred by everyone that's on the same general journey that I'm on. I've helped when I could by donating to their various gofundme campaignes. When I couldn't afford to donate, I've shared them.
All I want is to be able to feel the breeze on my bare chest while strolling down the beach or hiking through the woods. I want to feel the water from the pool and the ocean. I was to feel the sting of a sunburn. Things that males typically take for granted, I'd give anything to experience.
Any donations would be greatly appreciated (more than I could ever tell you). I get that it's tough for everyone out there so if you can't donate then a simple share would be just as appreciated. I know I've learned and helped a lot of people out just by hearing from someone else.
Thanks
Ty
Organizer
Christian Tyler Coley
Organizer
Raleigh, NC