Emily is in PAIN and needs your help!  even if only to pass this along and send a good thought & prayer her way!   She was ABANDONED 5x in her 1st year that we know of  & MASSIVELY ABUSED that 1st year after born damaged & deformed at a puppy mill.  Now HER PAIN is GETTING   WORSE: and SHE  NEEDS  YOUR  HELP  TO  FIX  it.   She'd come a long way by the "pretty in pink" photo  [age 4 or 5]  from when I rescued Emily at 1 yr. old.  (above photo)  to be a service dog for me:  This picture above was in her 1st week with me: 1 yr. old & only 11 lbs [not the 18lbs she should have been], those back legs paralyzed along with her digestive tract,  back pinched up from nerve damage, back humped up like a racoon looks [I just thought she was a funny looking deformed mut, maybe hit by a car or something: I didn't need a perfect dog, just one that needed love].   I was to find out  later her spine turned out to be massively damaged/deformed, those back legs paralyzed from it[she walked moving her hips, they swung in circle like dead weight] as was her digestive tract so her bladder was compromised & her immune system nil:   causing 12 infections in less than 2 yrs.

She's come a long way since then, but due to worsening pain from a tragic crime [an idiot creep/con neighbor drove his senior scooter right over her and on top of her trapping her] she still needs medical help & chiropractic care which I cannot afford to give her, as well as now needing the food that healed & kept her better these past 7 yrs.

Herstory:
The Carson shelter failed to mention that her entire back end was paralyzed.  And that she had been  ABANDONED 5x in her 1st year and massively ABUSED [later became clear she had been beaten with broom handles, brushes, straps, kicked, tail broken, anal muscles severed, and who knows what else, noises and broom handle still terrify her 8 yrs later] .
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Luckily within hours of getting her home I knew there was something terribly wrong.  She looked so panicked when she had an accident, but I intuitively knew something was wrong & she couldn't help it.   The vet I took her to the next morning told me to just kill her.   As you see I couldn't.  

But that lack of support & the worry took its toll.  
I knew, like again now, she needed major help I couldn't afford to give her, so back then after trying for 2 weeks without success to get orthopedic help for her on a payment plan or donated,  I tearfully let her go to a rescue group .  A rescue group took her, I thought to get her orthopedic help & adopted again, but she didn't get any orthopedic care nor adopted & after 2 months her foster mom called to say they thought I was "the best person for her."  While I understand her pain because of my own brain/spine pain from TBI & a violent crime 30 yrs ago & counting, I think I was likely the ONLY person for her & her challenges.    In those first weeks, I would bath her every day [her infections & diarrhea made her messy], and while snuggling her in a towel, would say "I don't know how, but you're going to be okay; we're going to be okay."  I smiled when I came across a line from an Emily Dickenson poem, "I dwell in possibility."  That was Emily & me!!  I thought that was why God named her Emily the night before I was 'guided' to go back to the shelter and get her:  an intuitive, tho usually only when doing sessions [except this, and before & on 9/11] I was given a vision of EMILY in huge letters on a theatre marquee, & knew I needed to get her and call her Emily.  It turned out God knew better than me, as it also changed how people responded to her.  Being funny looking they would look disdainful & shy away till I said her name, when they'd instantly smile, approach her, and give her the love needed!  For all those moments of TLC, thank you!! 

The rescue group never did get her the needed MRI nor any orthopedic workup & care, & their doc failed to notice that her tail had not only been broken but pulled so hard it was moved askew [I say she looks like 'pin the tail on the donkey!']  & all her anal muscles were severed [so she has none: so no control there ].   It was a tough  1st year we had together, 1st infection then diarrhea, over & over: she is 'the best booty shaker in the West' to get her poop out!   & when pooh was messy diarrhea she'd spread the joy for me!  She'll never be easy.

WHAT WAS WRONG for her 1st 2 yrs. that wiped out my savings? :  [for wrong now see end]
Emily was born at a puppy mill with massive spine damage [shown in x-rays I had taken in her 2nd yr].  Her back legs & digestive track were paralyzed, leading to 12 bladder infections in less than 2 yrs., the highest bacteria count & antibiotic dose every 2 mons or less.  She was a trooper, walking by swinging her hips, running with her pelvis like a bunny hop, her spine pinched up like a racoon [likely FAR MORE PAINFUL than anyone knew].  And yet still sweet & playing with her canine & human buddies.

 The vet bills that 1st year wiped out all savings.  Along with her need for a special high end limited diet  [thank goodness for "Small Batch" raw food healing diarrhea problem]. 

But she was & is a joy as well and gained two lbs. despite it all that 1st year we were together [between 1 & 2 yrs old].   I took her most days to a great dog group with her buddies & people who watched out for her w/ me.  She's kept me going ameliorating my PTSD effects, helping with my pain.
Then when she was 2, after all those infections  & still paralyzed, & getting yet another infection, desperate to give her an immune system [& in despair about her having no immune system, praying for how I could help her have an immune system, I was given an intuitive vision of the results graph of a medical study for a juice I'd been drinking myself for a year],  so I started giving her the juice as "I can't give her a 7th round of antibiotics in a year".  Emily  transformed within 3 & 4 wks!!!   No infection  & her 1st ever clean urine sample (in 3 wks) her fur changed for better, but even more amazing & beyond my wildest expectation, her spine went straight & her legs began to work! (4wks).  As long as we had/have the juice no infections.   It literally healed her DNA, continuing to grow eventually from 11lbs at 15 months into the 18lb Border terrier she was bred to be, incl.  the breed traits of more willful, stubborn & talkative!  She is a really good girl: she brings joy to so many, talking to elderly neighbors, making people smile wherever she goes.  And Emily loves children & babies.

When I stopped drinking the juice to give it to Emily instead, I discovered I had a brain tumor that the juice  had been keeping from growing.  I couldn't afford it for both Emily & me, & wanting doctors to see what was going on and wanting Emily to stay well,  I kept the juice for Emily.  I had to go blind before my insurance approved an MRI & surgery for me,  after two surgeries they can't get it all, so the juice is all that keeps my tumor from growing as well (& saved my eyesight) -- the juice has kept us both well for yrs.!

WHAT  STILL  NEEDS  TO  BE  HEALED:
When Emily was 6 yrs old however, two tragedies occured:  she was bitten by a coyote that attacked her out of the darkness walking on a leash with me [her 2 deep fang puncture wounds healed fast, I credit the juice], but  the worst was 5 months later  when an awful neighbor drove over her & on top of her with his big senior scooter [I had to lift it off of her].  He did a lot of damage to her back end that had before totally healed.   
After a yr. he still had not paid a penny toward her vet bills: I pressed charges but our less than stellar PD did nothing [tho harming a service dog is supposed to be a felony].  She still needs orthopedic/chiropractic for this.  And the deformity and pain from it is worsening.

I had hoped it would heal better, like the spine did after the juice [no sign of the original spine damage even on the x-ray! taken the day she was run over],  but, like my TBI, she is chronically in pain now, acute before storms. She has suffered so much  in her little life.   And her pain is getting worse.   And I am worried: I know something serious is not right.    She has been a trooper thru it all:  but she deserves so much better. 
It crushes me that I can't give it to her:  the stress of the worry is very bad for both my TBI & tumor. 
& something is  more wrong lately.  She desperately needs an orthopedic work up & care, as well as other essential vet care for  bloodwork,  teeth, vulva & anal sore, & now  w/o the  JUICE  I  CAN  NO  LONGER  AFFORD, Emily possibly has a urinary tract  infection again like all those ones in the beginning, that I now can't afford** any more to test for.   [why I originally gave her away to a rescue group, thinking they could help her, so I would not be in this position of her needing help I can't afford, and she wouldn't be in pain, but they gave her back to me  &  I can't  abandon her again!]
 
But Emily is suffering. 

It pains me not to be able to care for her like I did before she wiped out my savings and before my disability benefit was recently slashed in half.  But Emily shouldn't suffer because I became poor after asking for help with my TBI after trying for 20 yrs w/o help, futher exacerbated by costs from my subsequent PTSD & brain tumor.  ** [And asI said, her vet bills wiped out my savings.  After directing 5 counseling programs, sitting on 5 human service Boards & 3 anti-bias task forces, doing lots of pro-bono community service work,  & years after a violent crime left me seriously injured, I made the mistake of applying for disability so I could get healthcare [ha!], but now  my disability check has yet again been cut (this time in half) to give tax breaks to billionaire companies & an elite greedy few on the backs of the disabled]

I can no longer afford  her food & the vet care she now desperately needs.

She has been abandoned already 5 x or more, too much for one little life, I cringe thinking of her ever feeling that again... and she still has intense separation anxiety [while it is much better I still can't walk away, even when she's with people she adores, without her desperately trying to get to me] so even if I  could find someone to take a 9 yr. old incontinent deformed dog,  I don't ever want her to feel abandoned again!...5x was too much, not ever again!!  So please, she needs your help.  Whatever you can give will help and be so very welcome.

And the truth is I need her:  it is why she is a service dog.  She keeps me alive, helps me cope with pain & PTSD.
Ideally I would love to get a guardian angel to  be her sponsor:  for vet & food bills.  [so if you know one!]

But whatever you can spare will make a difference!
$152 buys the case of juice [month supply]
$55 a month of her raw food
$22  a canister of her Canine  Four Flex [joints]
$9  Arnica pellets for pain, inflammation
$2.80 for a can of her wet food [she can't have kibbles she gets painful crystals in her urine] 
$6 to $16 a bag of  treats [she can't have grain]
$ 35 for a chiropractic adjustment [it helped!!] Dr. Gambucci gives Emily a break, it'susually more
$ 350 approx  for vet visit, blood workup, teeth, etc. Dr. Liebl also wonderful gives her a slight discount, too.
$$ ??  City of Angels orthopedic workup & treatment

&  If you cannot afford to contribute $, a good thought or pray will be most   welcome!!    

& please pass this along!!

"Kisses"  with one of her best friends

Emily caught the big whale

Emily with elder neighbor friend who says - "she makes people happy"... "she is the most WONDERFUL dog ever!"

But she is in pain,  and she still needs help.