I have been facing the most difficult pregnancy anyone can imagine with the surprise of being told that i would be expecting two princesses came all the complications. In November I was rushed to Houston because baby Madelyn was not getting enough fluid I underwent a laser surgery to correct it which seemed to be successful, a few weeks later I was then told that complications from the surgery resulted in Mariah having a band around her little arm that would eventually become amputated in the womb... again I was rushed to Houston to see what could be done. There I was told that it may be unethical to proceed with a surgery to save the arm and risk both babies lives. Obviously I was devastated and began to think what kind of life that meant for both of my babies. I opted to wait and take it day by day and went home. On January 2 at my regular appointment I was given the awful news, baby Madelyn no longer had a heartbeat the same type of band that constricted Mariah’s arm constricted Madelyn’s chord cutting all her blood supply ....I was in a complete fog and didn’t know where else to go but ended up at the San Juan Basilica with absolutely no money not even for a simple candle I wholeheartedly dedicated my child to God and begged him to let me keep my other baby....again I was rushed to Houston, they figured it would be ideal to attempt and save Mariah’s arm given the circumstances. I was taken into surgery where they discovered many other bands that were risking Mariah’s life too, they removed all possible dangers and we hoped for the best. For a whole month I opted to be strong and not cry, in some weird way I figured that as long as she was still in my womb it wouldn’t be real. Three weeks after surgery while trying to recover my blood pressure fell and I blacked out landing on my face I was left with a bruised left side and bloodied eyes but was very fortunate that Mariah survived. Every day seemed long and tortuous I would panic if she moved too much and even more when she didn’t move as much but didn’t want her to feel my stress so that she wouldn’t stress. At 26 weeks they discovered that my bag was ruptured and was leaking so again I was admitted to the hospital where I was told that the risks of infection was grave I then was transferred to Corpus Christi Medical Center to hopefully retain her in the womb as long as possible. @ 27 weeks I began contracting where I was told delivery was the only option at that point and February 8 became a bitter sweet day because I welcomed my baby girl Mariah Lauryn 2lbs 13in and my little angel Madelyn Kamille weighing only .33lbs 9in long. Today I am faced with the worst pain a mother could ever endure I must say goodbye to Madelyn , .....if I could keep you in my belly and close to my heart I would but baby I must set you free my greatest consolation comes with knowing that I will have your mirror image to wake up with every day and that somewhere in heaven there’s a mirror image of Mariah that looks down on us and protects us. God thought you were so special he created you twice once for us and the other for heavenas all of this came so soon I ask for your prayers that Mariah keeps making progress in the NICU and second I humbly ask for your help financially to give my angel a proper send off to her home in Heaven anything will help and thanks to all of you in advance 




Madelyn Kamille Born 2/8/19 Baptized on 2-12-19 @ 12:22am Corpus Christi Medical Center Bay Area