Why I Want to Go

Back in May I went to the Expand the Box training in Possibility Management. In five days I experienced profound transformation. I came in contact with decades of grief, fear, and suppressed anger. I found my fire. I shouted out what I care about: “I want a world where boys grow up learning to care for their hearts. Where they are not abused. Where they are held and supported.” As a father, that moment changed me. I don’t want to lone wolf this. I want a team of fathers and a community of people committed to radical responsibility, transformation and deep connection. I have continued over the summer to explore this deeper by going to Rage Club trainings that have been equally as transformative and precious.

The Next Step

The next step is the Possibility Lab in New York City (October 15-19). This is where the deeper initiations and transformation happen. This path is not about love and light, although that is a by-product. It is about feeling my feelings, facing my underworld, and letting something new be born again and again. I want this because it changes who I am as a man, a father, and a spaceholder. Every week on this path opens more room in my heart and more clarity about what I take a stand for.

The Mountains

Three mountains stood in the way of me going. The training fee. A friend said “f*ck yes” and sponsored it. Childcare. My co-parent had already arranged most of the time with grandma. I asked for one extra day. She said yes. Two mountains moved. The third mountain is the cost of flights, as well as room and board: $1,200.

The Edge

I feel fear writing this because I don’t know how it goes. Previously, I would have let my fear stop me. Now, thanks to the transformation I experienced in Expand The Box and Rage Clubs, I know that fear is not a problem. It reveals where I am at and where my next edge is. I feel fear, and still I am here experimenting.

The Invitation

What I know is that mountains move when I take a step. I am inviting you now to be a part of this adventure by supporting me. You are part of the team that makes this initiation possible. Two mountains have already been moved.

Will you help me move the third?