The economy is dead. Humanity is dead. The planet is dead. And soon, so will I be. But I am looking for a reason to not kill myself and I can't seem to find any.

My daughter was kidnapped by a narcissistic sociopath, enabled by a corrupt family court three years ago. I was finally able to see her again after 2 years of fighting at the cost of my career, over 300k and my community. I was falsely placed on house arrest and later sent to jail for telling my friends on both Facebook and, even here, on GoFundMe what happened while seeking financial assistance to pay my attorney bills. My very few donations received came from ex-girlfriends which should tell you something about my character, as I'm sure you're already looking for reasons to discredit me as a "misogynist." But posting my story to said "social media" sites were violations of an unconstitutional restraining order. Don't believe me? My "criminal" record is public, look it up. I eventually plead guilty to both counts of 1st Amendment violations to get out of jail.

Truth is America is dead and this happened long before Trump took back the White House. Our district and metro court systems are no less corrupt than the Supreme Court, hijacked by similar special interests such as State Bar Associations, Social Workers, For-profit Prisons, Bail Bondsmen and etc.. Family Law Firms are financially incentivized to keep cases in judicial limbo, until one or both parties to the transaction are drained of legal funds because attorneys aren't paid to win. Instead, they are paid hourly ($350/hour in my local "Parental Alienation" child abduction market).

I am now disabled. I keep getting fired, unable to hold a job. Mercifully, I've got a disability claim underway and am confident I will be approved this time but it will take another year for the result. Furthermore, I have a number of lawsuits in the works, one for unlawful deactivation of my 19 year old Facebook and associated instagram accounts for my years of unsuccessful advocacy for Palestinian Statehood. Why? I am a straight white male. Don't like me saying that? Then you're part of the problem. Why do you think so many men turn to MAGA? Education? Piss off with your liberal feminist arrogance, I have a Bachelor's Degree, a 127-point IQ which is twice neuropsychologist tested, 3 decades apart (cry about it, should you wish) and learned Japanese as an adult.

Here's the thing. I was a child star. However at the time of my posting this, I have $370 of borrowed money to my name. Like many kid actors of my time, I lost my career due to my depression when I made my first suicide attempt at 15 which landed me in the hospital at UCLA Medical Extension for 6 months. I've become a veteran of practiced psychology and have a more extensive background in therapy than most clinicians. My healthcare providers frequently borrow from my coping mechanisms I've developed over the years to teach other clients. But the truth is, my problems can't be solved by medication and talk.

Like many others, I came to the understanding long ago that religion is a lie, society is pointless and my own happiness is ever fleeting. I am well aware that very few people really care whether I live or die. Like most young men in the US, I personally haven't had sex in well over two years. You should see how lonely my dating apps are. Women, I often feel, look at me as though they hope I do kill myself. So I sleep with my bearded dragon, my only real friend who appreciates the love I selflessly offer.

I am an aspiring journalist and advocate. Female influencers often have millions of followers for simply being attractive. One of whom, for example, reviews parking lots. My comparitably pathetic 1,500 person followership, which took literally years of 50+ hours per week to develop, doesn't make me feel any less suicidal. But as usual, despite my unobjectionable logic, consistently accurate political prognostication, impenetrable integrity, no one gave half a fuck what I had to say and as mentioned before my reward for my honesty was the suspension of my Meta accounts.

Even before my life fell apart, I had to beg friends and family to watch my climate action content and no one was willing to support me financially. So I've decided that because I want to die anyway, I wish to give my life to a cause I believe in: Palestinian Liberation. My death wish makes me an invaluable member to the movement.

I had first publicly pledged enlistment in the US armed forces, should we declare World War Three against Israel, the rogue Nazi state committing the first live streamed Holocaust, in May of 2024 on my instagram.com/lastpanda419 channel. Please feel free to subscribe before it too is banned and all my work is permanently deleted. However, it is of course unlikely the United States (the very country financing the genocide) would ever do this, so while waiting for my Flotilla application to be approved, I am pressing the Colombian government to allow me to join their International Palestinian Liberation Army.

However, I haven't worked and am going to lose my home soon. I recently took a roommate, and that has been helpful (for my loneliness as well) but I am nowhere near financially solvent especially having to pay court ordered ransom money of $480 per month to keep my kid in the custody of a psychopath criminally lawless judges, themselves, acknowledged committed multiple acts of aggravated battery. I have no reason to believe I will ever be happy, as much as I wish I could be. It's just not realistic for the mass majority of men in the States.

I had originally put together a GoFundMe to fix my AC when I was sleeping in a tent in my backyard and despite it having been shared by several very large accounts, I only received $200. It came from fellow Palestinian advocate friends who were grateful for my dedication. Obviously, I spent far more money on my advocacy itself... So I don't expect anyone to care about this plea for help either. But much like the Palestinian people, who have been abandoned by the world (which is partially why I relate to them so intimately), I always have hope I will one day be proven wrong.

I'm asking for $12,000 to return the money I've borrowed, pay for necessary car repairs and will keep me afloat while I attend truck driving school over the next few months as a safety net as I wait for acceptance into Colombian President Gustavo Petro's Liberation Army.

Thank you, for being among the only few likely to read this. Please share and if you can donate, please please do.