Scott Needs Help After MRSA and Foot Amputation

hi I'm Scott.

I've spent a lot of time in the hospital this past year. Had some parts of my foot cut off, after a long term recurring diabetic foot ulcer gave me a body full of MRSA infection.

They had me in a room with no shower. I went to the MRI in the basement the 1st morning. By the 3rd morning the attending physician had all this protective gear And they had this whole setup on the outside of my door to the room anybody coming in and had to put on all that stuff, and I was grounded.

Confined to my room.

Couldn't use the floor shower because I was a risk to other patients.

I was there for 30 days. Only time I get to leave the room before the last day was when they wheeled my bed down to surgery to start carving up my foot.

I like to say I am acquiring an increasingly interesting footprint. I'm down to two toes on that foot. That would be the little piggy who had roast beef, and the piggy who had none.

I got zillion pictures The phones and all that really gory stuff that I'm not going to put here, But I might have a page story of life medical history over the past decade or so...

like hella detail, but you know, hidden behind a link so only Morbid people who have strong stomachs can see. I don't know. Y'all let me know if you want to see.

So here's the deal... I really don't like doing this and if I had a good way to get to the other side of these needs or I could then afford the stuff, without having to ask for donations, I definitely would.

Buf I'm in a spot where to move forward I got it a little bit of a kitty and I'm really tired of being stuck.

Since we're here, I guess I can at least try to tell my very unfun story in a kinda fun way. This is tough for me. I want to work for my funding. If y'all are able to help me get through this bottleneck phase right now it should help me get set up to where I can actually finally get back on the work I passionately want to be doing, that I have not been able to for the last several years.

By no means out of the forest of unfortunate health yet, but have made some serious progress over the last few years and if I can put together the things I'm gonna ask for some help with here, then that should help me get set up to start my work back finally after all these years.

It's consulting type stuff, I'll explain below.

I don't like asking for handouts, and I always try to find a way to provide value from my end somehow, so I can contribute as well, and not just take. I know one way I can do that is that once I've gotten to the point I can start my work again and bring in income from that, I will look to set aside some every week that can be used to pay it forward and donate to help others in need like you are blessing me here now.

Another way is that the work I do to set up marketing on getting this thing out to spread and find its way to the right eyeballs well,, I bet that once I'm done with this one with what I need to raise... That work doesn't have to just be shut down also. If I do a good job at it, I bet it can be a set up that stays set up and I can help others by running their fundraisers through the model and piggybacking on what's already built to try to give them a pretty good boost. I'm looking forward to that.

Oh, and, let's see... You know what? I can actually do my thing, the consulting stuff I'm weirdly good at somehow, finding solutions to impossible problems (it's a savant thing, I think they call it. With the autism - oh, hey, I'm autistic. You ever see that movie Rain Man? Or the TV show about Mr Monk? Well, yeah it's kinda like that.)

Actually, it's a whole lot like that. I'm not actually all that super smart for real, it's like there's these things over here that somehow I'm almost supernaturally good at, though not really sure HOW... A lot of times, answers just come to me and turn out to work. Well don't let the savant parts fool you, I'm not super smart like that on most things. In fact, im embarrassed at how bad I am at most day to day stuff that most people do without even having to think about it

See, they have these terms about "high functioning" and "low functioning" autistics but those terms are garbage.

They call me "high functioning"

I beg to differ. The word is '"verbal" I've got lots and lots of words and can talk a good game, do really good with the stuff I work on.

But outside of that, I'm barely function on my own. I have no sense of the passing of time. I will be writing and look up and see that 19 minutes has gone by.

Then I'll do the.. well surely it must be the exact same thing, right? Then I'll look up and 19 hours has gone by.

Autism is weird.

Anyway, another way I can make sure I'm contributing as well, not just taking.. is maybe I can help you out somehow if you've got a perplexing problem you haven't been able to crack (I'm talking about situational stuff, in business solutions type of thing, for math problems, You need to consult with actual rain man.)

So, yeah, I truly appreciate your donation help. Look, if you've got something that's been giving you gray hairs for a while, come and lay it on me, I can't promise for miracle.

But I can't promise you won't get one either.... I mean I'll just give it a shot...

(But hey, if we do that, and turns out to actually work... Any chance I might also be able to squeeze you for a testimonial so I can work on getting some clients to help? That'd probably be pretty cool too..)

Okay, so the thing about Mr Monk, is first of all of you've never seen it, then you have an entire series that you get to go binge watch. Go binge watch it.

But see, it's like he's supernaturally good at the one thing that helps people, solving the crimes and stuff, but an absolute basket case and can't even function on his own with everything else...

And so he's got a nurse who works with him and helps take care of everything that is stuff that's other than that thing he's real good at.

So yeah, that's kinda one of the things I need some help with getting going, please.. I'm budgeting to be able to get new caregiver/helpers, and paying them for a couple of months, so they can help me get my stuff set up and going in the revenues from work and I can pay them from.

That's my catch 22. For me to get to where I can do the stuff I can be able to pay them, well, I need the help from the helpers to be able to pay the helpers to help me get the money to pay them...

I believe that this is going to make all the difference in the world in terms of me being able to get to meaningful work and that will let me Get off of SSI start contributing back to society, put in my life together again after losing everything for the past few years....

I really really need some help. I've been down for a long time. I can get up a little bit more now, but, I'm not so good at being on my own.

And also I mean, I really really should not be left unsupervised. It's like people expect me to be an adult or something, because of my age. But, I'm really not.

I'm really not. I want to be. So I try to be. I don't think it's character. I think it's biology. Probably involving prefrontal cortex stuff. Executive function in the moment type of thing.

I mean, hey, I'm probably world class when it comes to being a strategist.. But I'm not even kindergarten class when it comes to actually implementing the stuff by myself. I just really need some helpers. And I think that with that, I don't have to me be able to do the stuff that I'm actually good at, I can probably bring in enough to support everybody.

(Ok, seriously,back to the providing value thing, if I can do something for you that right let me help earn your donation if you will know, I really would appreciate that chance. I'm just really don't like not at least trying to work for what I get. )

Okay, so some of the other stuff:

So I'm trying to get this apartment to move in right after the new year.

A couple months ago I moved out of the place close to downtown I've been at most of the last 5 years. I used to love it, when I was first there.

Back when it was owned by different people.

Before they sold to an investor up in Virginia, and they brought on this new property management company who just turned into misery. Saddled me with the worst neighbors, made it so I was just afraid to even live there anymore.

I've been sick really long time. Started back in late 2015, and I feel like several years I've lived off of SSI, and some support from housing voucher for people with certain disabilities...

Since then, I've been renting a room temporarily, from a friend kind of outside of town while trying to figure out the next move.

And I've got it. It's so this apartment that I really like and it's very different part of town that's in a war zone,

In fact it's like I'm in the middle of a field just about a mile from where I grew up, I haven't lived up that way in a long time, but I'm comfortable there. I

t's not scary so much as where I've been living. And but I'm.. anxious to get into my new place.

And figure out how to manage The deposits and the moving cost and all that.. Once I'm in, I can handle stuff for rent in utilities and all that, but, I'm trying to figure out how to swing the move in costs... Deposit, for the apartment, deposit for electric too., and the payments for the renters insurance they require.

I got to find about $750 for the apartment deposit. Then about $350 to clear and transfer my electric bill and Allstate is asking $64 down for the renters insurance.

I don't have a huge amount of stuff. I can probably get the move itself done with under $200 for the U-Haul, and paying some people who don't have spinal injuries like I do to carry the stuff.

I am really really looking forward It's getting in this apartment. Pretty much just waiting on being able to figure out these costs.

I'm not done with foot wounds. Still got a long term diabetic ulcer that hasn't made much progress in the last year. A big part of it is nutrition. When I was in the hospital, they're giving me this drink three times a day, that is really really good for this powder protein especially formulated for wound healing, called juven.

It's from Abbot Labs, who make Ensure and Glucerna (for diabetics like me) unfortunately my health insurance will not cover it, or Ensure, or Glucerna, Is there over the counter. But, actually need all of them, and they get pretty pricey stacked against a meager SSI check.

So a month's supply roughly shown below (2 packs of 48) is just a little under $250

Glucerna Hunger Smart Shakes for diabetic or a really helping me come back from some pretty bad health scares.

The hospital has got me absolutely hooked on these things right here... The Apple flavored ensure clear.

I used to drive professionally. In a whole other lifetime. I like that Johnny Cash song "I've been everywhere man." I'm somewhere between 1 and 2 million miles I guess.

I had to give up driving in my personal vehicle by 2017 gave my car to the girlfriend the time come on my feet and my spine just were so messed up and made it hurt so bad. My driver's license expired in 2019.

And today have some flags from back in 2010 that they're feeling to charge of because we had to my car s,xxx itting at the trucking terminal in Dallas months at a time and a couple times over the years later insurance payment but and he was just sitting there and I didn't go turn in a licence plate or anything so now I've got like 400 bucks that the DMV wants, before I can even get a new license

Now that my health is come back just enough that I think I can probably do something to start driving again, and that will be a huge huge difference for my life going cuz I have been stalled, stuck most of the time I'm only able to come over.

And honestly I'm probably going to have to do a lot of the work from bed. Because I'm still not anywhere near strong enough to go work a full-time job like other people...

And that's really frustrating. But hang out I really really want to try to do what I can back into you productive world and contribute to something meaningful.

That bloodstream infection that came from a neck tumor that cut in 2015, and some type of zillions of evil bacteria intimate body and made me incredibly sick, like 2017 it had taken my ability to even ride in a car anymore to go on consulting trips....

But worse, between that thought infection, and his first two strokes, it turned my brain to absolute mush. I lost all my smarts from before, lost all my skills lost all my specialization that I had spent seemed like forever building up ...

Then, it was just gone...

And then I want even me anymore, for three or four years, I couldn't even think straight.

It was it was very very distressing and depressing..

Then a little after my spine surgery in 2020, I started to find myself beginning a long and very slow recovery of being able to have my brain start to work again in a little bits and pieces and ..

Studying and studying studied until I had relearned all the business skill and speciaized knledge that had I lost, and now that I've got it back, I really want to go use it.

I'm emotional because I thought that my life's passion work was just gone for good

.. that I was never going to get it back, get to make it happen...

But now, now I think, I think there's a good chance I'm getting back to it soon....

That's why I'm even doing this...

Seeking support that will help me get the stuff that's in here, then I can get to the place where I might finally be able to do something meaningful and fulfilling and helpful to others with my time, and almost feel like I can be a real person again.

Whether I'm able to really get there yet right now, well, it really depends on what happens here with this page, on how you choose to bless me with your support.

Because what's here, this is what I need to get myself just minimally going again.

I want so bad to be able to work again, and make a difference... Like on those "impossible problems," that I may be able to help you figure out ..

Autistic ability to just seems to be here I don't know where it comes from but, I feel like if I can do something for others that solves a big need for them, then I should try my best to be able to them.

That's what I was talking about earlier, wanting to be able to provide value from exchange for the help, not just take hand out if there are something there to bring them a fair exchange.

Because, It's going to take a little while to set up to get to where I can start to bring in formal paying clients, and I get to use my stuff for them, and really hoping to be able to share my gifts with anyone who will kindly let me.

I've been stuck or have just been on the taking end from government assistance and all that for too long. I really want to give back.

So there's.... This is a very real thing, please if you have something that maybe I can try please let me know and I'll do my best.

We can help each other out ha by the time I get to trying to bring in formal clients I might actually be able to make my brain behave again.

Well, maybe "behave" a little bit too strong a word for me. I'm Probably not the best role model when it comes to things like behaving.. :)

So anyway I want to know about me driving history, and I do need to get my license back I don't know if I'm going to be much good for driving personally they have not coming but I can need to get some transportation.

And I think maybe probably maybe something like $6,000 Get me something honest but reliable on marketplace, and get it registered and insured and all that, hey don't know if I'm going to get to drive again anytime soon.

But I'm on it so okay if I'm able to put together and help that I need to get helpers /caregivers/ assistants / pretty much everything that isn't the three or four things that I'm actually good at.

And that's I'm pretty big bunch of stuff, pretty much all updated life. They can handle that for me and then I can just go do the weird autistics savant stuff. Hopefully you will start paying the bills soon...

Just managing my

stuff with day-to-day life, then it seems to be easy for everybody, except me.

And I don't know why. Because it really, I think about the thing and I'm like all I can do this really big important cosmically scaled and impossible thing over here,

but why can't I do what everybody else does not even thinking about it...

And the answer is that autism is weird.

..

Also spinal injuries.

I think I'm going to have to get a little bit of furniture after the move. The living room, and some office stuff and kitchen table type of thing. I got this best friend and she knows how to find full stuff I guess. Just shows up with it I bet she can have everything I need for well under $1,000, and that includes the kitchen stuff and all that too. I'll let her handle that. She likes that stuff. And I don't go outside much so .

I thought I was making a big positive move when I got out of the interstate to come to this place I am now my friend's place a little suburb town in the country.....

How can I obviously cannot participate moving stuff myself, and I was so exhausted when they got it over here that I just collapse on the bed and slept 10 more stuff like that on porch and I had my wheelchair and my knee walker stolen. And I'm not supposed to be walking. Because of this. And tell me I'm just, like, who steals wheelchairs?

That's not a rhetorical question I really like to know who stole my wheelchair. That really upset me. A lot. Anyway,..

So I need to get another one. This is the one I am really liking. It says the lightest chair in the world. And that's good. Cuz I'm not so strong as I used to be. I think the word is "atrophy." I've been in bed a long time As a medical patient.

Now I've got to come up with a budget to get a couple months lead time on those helpers about two to three months. Hopefully they will be able to help me enough to where we get revenue and I can pay them out of that.

I almost got to be well enough for just a little bit where I didn't have to have a caregiver for a few weeks.

Almost

But, I need caregivers again. And with what I'm trying to do here and looking for just a hybrid role, someone who's probably CNA but also can help with some office work and getting me around and just whatever needs to be done. And I'm sure that's going to be a lot....

So they can play the role of the nurse while I play Mr Monk. Cuz I'm just like him except he's got better hair.

But by "just like him" I mean, like, weird and anxious. But especially weird. And anxious.

2 months of helper/caregiver pay, that's probably around $9600 lucky enough to be able to raise 3 months of lead time just in case I can't make it pay by month 2, well that's about $14,400

Good thing about the consulting businesses that, work out of my home, So really overhead and start up costs are really pretty small.

Unfortunately not small enough to be contained in what's left over for my SSI check next month...

So I thank you so much for blessing me as you are today.

Aside from like the legal in accounting stuff, and some office equipment, couple of computers and printer, constant practically need to be covered in order to get to the point where we getting some accounts. It's mostly it's marketing stuff.

So I'm figuring probably about 600 should do it up front legal LLC accounting stuff like that,

can probably get home office equipment supplies and stuff inside of $5,000 to have what we need .

And I'm going to h ave to pull together some business attire so I can go out and pretend like I'm an actual real person and a professional at that (I mean WE know better, my misbehaving brain and all tha, but we've got to pretend... Somebody told me that I THINK 8)

I asked Liz what she thought that should be and she said to put down $800. So I'm just going to do what she says because I have no idea what clothes are supposed to cost.

I'm asked her what would a professional photoshoot for official materials websites and promotional printing and stuff like that, and she said $300. I also don't know what that's supposed to cost so, that's what I put down..

And she just reminded me to put that I need some of those pretty veneer things to make it look like my teeth are good instead of all broken because I spent 18 years taking Adderall not knowing it was going to make my teeth so messed up. So .. I think that's a category of "more pretend."

She just told me to put $300. I'm just doing what she says. She knows about stuff like that. I guess. More than me anyway.

So I think maybe I can make something go by $1500 towards so promotional material printing, maybe another $2000 direct me off supplies for those

Compared to most even lean startups, This really ain't much at all. It's a good news.

I just need to get the first for every clients and we can take over from revenues, I'm thinking between digital marketing setup coming my tech stack probably budget about $700 for that, Probably about $3500 to get to professional specialist in creations, websites several things for digital marketing,

and I love this one, because that's about $70,000 worth of work coming out first to the company in India that I can't wait to work with. That's going to be really fun. Virtualmployee.com

I'm sitting here making a bet with myself that I can probably get to a point of making something happen with in Just a $3,500 budget for adspend to start up.

I thank you so much, so much for your compassion and your help. And your kindnesses .