Saving Donavan

My mom has been udating a few close friends of mine shes knows and that have been calling her while I've been in the hospital...but though I feel so vulnerable and embarrassed for what I've done to myself I wanted everyone I love to know.
So here's the scoop
Donavan's medical problems are much more serious than we suspected or were told
He was taken out of Grassvalley by ambulance to small hospital there and diagnosed with additional pancreas problems , possible ulcers an esophagus problems . . Abdominal something due to extent of hernia . . There is a lesion on his pancreas that is scary but it could just be a cyst which is apparently impossibly painful but better than other possibilities
I drove him to Truckee Thursday night the Doctor helped find us a room . . His appointment was at 7:45 am Friday . . I took him by his house early am Friday to grab things he was obsessing over ? ?
His brain is still confused so they will be looking at MRI of his head to see if anything was missed since the hospital screwed up so badly!
Some of these tests were scheduled last Sat at 11 and when the new shift doctor came on at 6 am she spent 3 minutes with him said he was just "another" alcoholic canceled his test and discharged him
If I hadn't been in a hotel nearby this horrible woman/so called doctor would have put him on the street
Thank heaven the nurses called me . . One was so disturbed by this lack of compassion she was crying
At any rate . . He is now under the care of a private physician and an outpatient alcoholic specialist. .
It has been a rough few days but he is in my care under the supervision of these two wonderful doctors . . We go back to Truckee March 19 for a battery of testing. . Endoscopy , ultrasound , MRI of stomach, pancreas, throat , herniated area etc . . He had preliminary testing while in Truckee on Friday his meds were all changed because hospital gave all kinds of wrong stuff and we set up next stage of tests and exams
He is on six different meds for pain , anxiety, withdrawal , anti seizure, and to keep him calm
Here's hoping I am strong enough to last this out ❣️
His spirits are good when he is coherent. . And he sends love but he's freaked about money etc and I just try to keep him reassured , resting and calm . .
From me. ILove you guys sorry I have been out of touch just juggling so much and also scared about my my mom who has almost three weeks of missed work and job ❣️and falling behind on her rent and bills. I'm on a strict no fat no sugar expensive meidically required food diet to try and repair the beginning stages of Pancreatitis.
Keep the light an energy coming . . I have a lot on my plate so forgive me if I seem missing . . you are all in my heart and in my mind . .  Things are rough but I BELIEVE...Many of my beautiful friends have been texting and trying to call and offering how they can help .. I'm so sorry I've been in so much pain and fear of what I have done to myself and my body.
I have another Surgery next week back in Tahoe...which will bring meical bills and costs I probably couldn't pay in 10 lifetimes....when I make it through this
 I'm never drinking again ..there is so much life and beauty and friends in Lake Tahoe and my other places I call home ...that will be my high from here, not killing myself with drugs and alcohol. I had no idea I was so sick inside until it hit all at once. We can all do beautiful fun amazing things to together in our Majestic Magical Lake Tahoe world without alcohol ...maybe call it the Sober Tribe   I love you all and feel so blessed to have all of you in my life ❤️
Please take care of yourselves my friends 
Thank you so much please repost this if you feel it will help in anyway.
Thank you all so much I'm so sorry and
Embarrassed to have to ask for help. 23 days sober ...bye bye Donny Water
I Love and miss all of you.