Hey,

My names Marissa, I’ve had a really rough run for a while now. I’ve always been independent, never ask for help from anyone. Lived on my own and paid all my own bills from about 20 years old- 30. I’ve had to pick myself up from some really awful times and I always managed to suprise myself with my endurance and strength.

However, this time is much more difficult, I feel so tired and alone. I am suffering insane trauma and PTSD from an intensely abusive relationship that destroyed me. Everything I had, materialistic or mentally/ physically was drained from me during that time and I was discarded and left with nothing. I realize now that I do need to ask for help. I can’t pick myself up from this alone and so- I don’t know. I guess this is my last resort to ask for help.

I need to try to come up with a plan to get my life back. Maybe start a business. Definitely find somewhere new I can live to start over, but I need a jumpstart with a deposit/ rent. I have nothing. I don’t even recognize who I was before the abuse. I’m not the same person and it’s really sad. So yeah. Just someone who’s run out of options, seeing if anyone wants to help. If not I understand.