note: the beneficiary is not dmytro chumak, they are my friend who withdraws the money and gives it to me since my gofundme stopped accepting my bank account.

My name is Sadie Neat.

I am a 33 year old disabled trans woman. I have severe major depression, body dysmorphia, agoraphobia, social anxiety, and a general hopeless malaise  that makes it very difficult to interact with people.

I can't leave the house to do things like do groceries, or go to the doctors. Or for example buy clothes or see friends. I can only afford medication for half a month, and then the remainder of the month is spent in starving distress. I dont know what recourse their is for me. This is the best i can think of to help.

My social worker and therapist are trying to find me a job, but with my mental health issues it is not easy. My hope is one day I can support myself and my relatively meager needs. I want to write professionally, or type professionally. 

My life has been a series of terrible events. My mother has gaslit me my entire life, my sister bullied me. My father refused to pay child support, so we grew up very poor. Now I have no family, my mother sees me as lazy and uncaring, and that I have abused her angelic generosity. My sister thinks I deserve to be treated how I am treated, because the rare times I stand up for myself my response can be sharp in self defense. I have very little to my name: my computer, and my bed. My personal connections are few and precious and the idea of burning any bridges by needing help keeps me from reaching out directly.

I hope this will help me. That some kind of funding will make it easier to live, and find some stability. everyday is a struggle against suicidal ideation.

If you can help me, it would make a difference in my life. It would make my life.