Sabrín's Top Surgery FUNd!!

Hi, my name is Sabrín, and I am raising money for my gender-affirming top surgery. This is something I have always wanted and, at this point, crucial for my mental health and survival.

I shall lay the basic financial ground-work specifics first and then go into some more mushy stuff.

After much research, I have found a surgeon that I trust. The total cost of the surgery is $14,575. I shall then need money for travel costs to the surgery location, to afford essential recovery supplies, and to financially survive for two months off work as I recover. So, the total cost comes to $20,000.

I have plans to throw a benefit show to contribute to this fundraiser. It will take place in New York City, and I shall post more details soon via my Instagram. Feel free to follow me to stay updated on that: https://www.instagram.com/soysabrin/

Finally, I am excited to be able to offer 25 prints of this art piece my friend Kiki Leuck made to the highest donors.

I am beyond grateful to Kiki for surprising me with this beautiful image after a conversation on the phone a couple of weeks ago. I had expressed how during one of my topless sunlight meditations, I had an intense vision of myself as a snake ready to shed its skin. This is how my tits feel on my body. Like dead skin. I then learned that if snakes don't shed their skin...They die.

Thank you, Kiki! For showing up for me before I even knew how to show up for myself.

Now for the mushy stuff...

One of my earliest memories is hating the incoming growth of my breasts. An immediate and urgent sense of disorientation came with their growth...A painful separation of inner self and body. Like someone blindfolded me against my will, and I have never been able to see clearly since.

My Mama often tells me this story about the month she spent in Key West with my Great-Abuela awaiting my birth. One day while walking at sunset they began picking up every coconut they saw. They hauled all these coconuts back to their house, so excited for the coming coconut water they would soon enjoy…Only to find that all the coconuts were empty! That is how my tits feel on my body...Like empty coconuts.

I am non-binary. Which means I don’t feel like either a man or a woman. My gender is a VAST expression of my own creation…To walk this Earth between both genders is of the most radical, raw, and revolutionary of acts. It is something human beings have always done. I am grateful to be a part of this beautiful path.

A great milestone of this path is pursuing this surgery. The lifelong anxiety of a dissonant body disrupts not only my daily life but my lifelong calling and career as an actor. I have always related to male roles. I am sad, but confident to admit that my career is not yet what I want it to be because I have not had this surgery. This has depressed me greatly and, at times, made me want to stop acting altogether, even though it feels like the only reason I am alive on this planet.

So, that is basically it! The Trans experience is as hard as it is beautiful. Any penny given to this fundraiser WILL MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. I truly will be grateful to you FOREVER. This surgery is going to change my life, a life I cannot wait to dive into and swim in.

Please share far and wide. Every bit of traction and attention helps!

Muchas, muchas gracias y mucho, mucho amor!

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