Hi, my name is Julia and I’m setting up this GoFundMe page for many reasons. Not just for memorial and funeral cost, but also emergency funding, we didn’t know my mum did not have life insurance, and unfortunately, I can’t advance forward in making preparations due to a lack of money, money is very tight and of course we have to pay for cremation upfront and I don’t have any money to pay for it so in fact, I cannot get a death certificate to proceed and get the $2500 benefit for these costs. I can’t proceed in any direction unless I pay the 1500 for cremation currently I had to see the lawyer’s health because I don’t know what I’m doing. I haven’t been able to my mother. I have fallen into a depression and my husband has not been going to work because he’s too worried about me which is now a loss of income. I suddenly acquired my mom‘s debt, which is next to impossible. Maybe I’ll pay that off one day I highly doubt it, but I definitely don’t want to transfer that to my children who are desperately missing their grandmother my grandkids who are missing their Gigi. We need time to heal, and with all these expenses piling up it’s been incredible. , everybody seems to be giving me advice on what to do whether they’re right or wrong. I never thought when my mom died that it would be so difficult. I lost my best friend., so here I am swallowing my pride and asking for help. I did try going to the bank for a loan to help with incurring the costs that are coming up, but I was denied because for the last three years I haven’t been working. because I’ve stayed home and taken care of my mom. I was her full-time caregiver and I mean I did everything for her and that was a struggle due to. I have a rare disease. It is called cadisal …. I can have strokes heart attacks at any given time. It’s an actual vascular disease, and the walls of my vascular system are like crumbling mortar., so it affects every part of my body and really I’m just trying to preserve my brain, currently at this time I have not planned a funeral, I am just trying to get through Day by day, the lawyer has asked me to keep up with her debt, even though there’s no money coming in, I am finding the stress levels are over the top and I am not coping please any amount is greatly appreciated to try to offset what is happening. There is a lot more to this story. I am leaving out because I break down and don’t know how to put it towards a truthfully. I don’t know if I will ever get over the circumstances what have taken place? i’m going to give a tentative date for when the funeral is and I’m hoping I can change that. We haven’t been able to get through the first steps.