A BLESSING IN THE MAKING

As salaamu alaykum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatu. Peace and blessings to you all. My husband Abdullaah and I have been blessed to be married for 7 years this coming March 2020 InshaAllah (God Willing). We’ve been through ups and down just as any married couple. Trials such as death, loss of health and financial difficulties to name a few. We are grateful for the good, bad, and the ugly. Alhamdulillaah (All praise to Allah), we give thanks for everything. MashaAllah tabarakAllah.

We have the opportunity to raise two beautiful girls (Akila-11 & Aneesah-1) my cousins as our own. We love them tremendously, more than they’ll ever know. They bring us so much joy and strength through the dark days. Allah (God) is trusting us to raise them right and guided. We are doing our best to keep them on the straight path. 

It is with humble hearts that we’ve started this Go Fund Me page. We would like to start a new journey through IVF treatment. We know there is no guarantee and success is only by Allah’s mercy, but all we can do is try. Unfortunately, our medical insurance does not cover a fraction of the cost and it far exceeds our means, it is quite expensive. Let me give you a brief timeline of how our journey of TTC (trying to conceive) began:

2013- I turned 30 in February , got married in March to my best friend, got a new job in April at one of the top hospitals in NYC, things were going great then on May 20th the worst day of my life happened- My biggest supporter passed away, my mom. It was a painful emotional year for me to say the least. It was so hard dealing with her death and being a new bride at the same time. Abdullaah and I didn't live together until 2014, he was still living in Philadelphia. Allah got me through that difficult time by his mercy and grace.

2014-2015- My husband and I finally started living together and began enjoying our marriage on a greater scale. I’ve always wanted to be a mom and he always wanted to be a father. We began TTC (trying to conceive) but to no avail. After many failed attempts, we sought professional opinions. I had an HSG test done and found out my tubes were blocked. We were devastated but my husband didn’t say it or show it. I started looking into natural ways to unblock my tubes but still, after several grueling months, still we could not conceive. Fast forward a couple more month, after having unbearable headaches for about 5 years, I went for an MRI and found out I had a brain aneurysm. As you can imagine, the pain of not being able to conceive a baby coupled with the news that I had a life-threatening ailment, I became severely depressed. How can I have a child anyway I thought, I have an aneurysm. Times were tough, and I longed for my mom, but she was gone. Through it all, I was thankful to be alive. I had my husband’s support as well as family and friends. Eventually, I had a cerebral embolization surgery to block the aneurysm from bursting. Healing time was two weeks then I had to get back to work.

2016- Another year of endless effort, trying every possible means within our capabilities to conceive were fruitless. Later this year, I found out I had fibroids, 6 to be exact, which caused frequent trips to the bathroom at night, heavy periods, stomach and back pains and fatigue. Here we go again, I thought, more health issues, but once again I was glad to be alive. 

2017- I had a myomectomy to remove all 6 of my fibroids. I heard it was like having a C-Section. Man oh man, the pain while I was healing was insane, I couldn’t even cough without crying. We waited 6 months to start TTC again, tried and tried but still no conception, we left NYC and moved to Ohio. 

2018-2019 – I was exhausted from all the trials I had been through, thinking how much more can I bear, but then I remembered, “Allah does not burden a soul more than it can bear” (Qur'an 2:286). I started taking care of my womb, trying to eat the right foods and detoxing. I took herbal pills and was consistent with castor oil packs to try and unblock my tubes naturally. After a while I became disheartened and gave up. 

2020- Here we are today, I will be 37 in February by Allah’s permission and Abdullaah, 40 in March. We are not getting any younger. I don’t want to lose hope, we have tried every measure possible within our means. I would love to give my husband the gift of a child. He once told me that I was the only woman he wanted to have a child with, when he said that my heart broke, but he was just trying to say how much he loves me. We are hoping to try with IVF, we know that Allah will facilitate it for us, if it is decreed, all we can do is try and put our efforts forth, that being said- We are humbly asking for your support, every bit counts. If you would like to donate and help towards our IVF treatment we will forever be grateful. Even if you cannot contribute monetarily, your duas (prayer) are welcomed and appreciated just the same. Abu Huraira reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Whoever relieves the hardship of a believer in this world, Allah will relieve his hardship on the Day of Resurrection… (Ṣaḥih Muslim 2699).

Thank you all for reading my long post, Allah knows it took every morsel of courage to express such personal and sensitive issues, but I trust in my lord and none of us are above hardships and tests.

May Allah bless you all with good in this life and the next. Ameen