On the outside, I appeard as a normal male but inside I was tormented with toxic shame from my childhood. The toxic shame manifested itself about 20 years later in the form of believing the only solution for me to live out my life was to be Danielle which is the picture below.
Was lost for 53 years in a sexual dysfunction until God healed me through Bible Study, Prayer, and People. I am almost finished with my Book that reveals how God used people to pull me out of the dysfunction.
The book is also about the experience of growing up in a home where I suffered from my mother abusing me verbally & physically. My VA therapists have guided me through the deep pain & grief that I experienced as a wounded little boy.
If you have children or grandchildren, please never verbally admonish them to the point that the child's self-esteem is damaged. The verbal abuse I experienced will impact me till the day I die.
Want to reverse the damage I allowed to happen to me when I was sick and lost. Born a very healthy male, had a sexual addiction & dysfunction & gender dysphoria problem. Made a tragic mistake of having surgery to live as female in 2006.
Lived as transgendered female for almost 10 years. God was working in my life though throughout this difficult decade. The mental health professionals at the Seattle VA hospital helped me not harm myself when I went into a serious depression over my bad decision of removing body parts.
While living as a 'female', I went into the local county jail weekly to share how I had overcome substance abuse problems with the females that were in jail.
Christians were kind to me and helped me . My neighbors asked me to study the Bible. The biggest event was when God inspired the young woman below to come all the way from Israel to Portland, Oregon and we met at a Health Ministry program.
She shared her story about being abused with me and it had a dramatic impact on me and started the process where I came out of a psychological coma and then another series of events happened which led to a radical interaction with God in prayer.
God woke me up through a bolt of lightning experience in 2016 and I have been back in my birth gender of male since then. I had the breast tissue from being on female hormones removed in 2016 just weeks after my spiritual awakening.
I am scheduled for lower reconstruction surgery by a special urologist in Europe. He has performed 9 previous detransition surgeries. I will be in the hospital there for 2 weeks. Medicare does not cover the cost of surgery to restore removed body parts. This is why I have to travel to the special surgeon in Europe.
Will use the funds to pay for the medical costs.
My physical restoration is almost complete & I will be grateful till the day I die for each $1 that others can help me with to be restored to that little boy that God created. I praise God that I am free now.
Will be contacting my donors to give them my book once I have a pdf version ready.
People are contacting me to speak to friends of theirs that are struggling with gender identity. I did not desire this to be part of my life story. I am just following the doors that God is opening in my life right now.
I have had my best year ever this year living in God's Will. He sent me a wonderful Christian friend that is also a beautiful woman to enjoy being with and to be out in nature experiencing creation.
Is God good or what ?
Thank you for your help in making my reconstruction possible. If you are not able to donate, please share on social media and maybe one of your friends will be able to help.
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