Hi yall I wished I was here for a different reason, but im here because I dont have all the money needed to have the basic cremation and ceremony for my son a friend told me to come here and basically beg yall to help me do this for my son but really it's for us here that are still alive and we dont have a place to put our grief and sorrow so that's why im here to ask for help

My heart is shattered into pieces right now.

On March 4, 2026, I lost my son, Elias Benny Montes. I still can’t believe I’m even saying those words. No mother should ever have to bury her child.

Elias… he wasn’t perfect, but he was mine. He was strong-willed, hardheaded, funny, and full of life. He had his own shine about him that nobody could take away. If you knew him, you know exactly what I mean.

I keep replaying memories in my head. One I think of often was when he was about 5 yrs old he was acting up and I told him I wasn’t putting up with it. I told him if he couldn’t listen, he could leave. He went in his room, put his boots on (on the wrong feet like always), grabbed his cowboy hat, and walked out.

I closed the door a little surprised at his readiness to move out on his own at just 5 yrs ols… then looked through the peephole and saw him still standing there. He turned his head to left then the right with his little hand blocking out the sun light, he turned and knocked, I smiled to myself thinking I taught him a lesson and when I opened it, he said, “Mom… which way is California?”

That was my son.

But now he’s gone… and I would give anything just to hear his voice one more time.

Right now, I’m trying to come up with the money to cremate him and give him a memorial he deserves. I only have about $1,000, to my name everything I have but im willing to give it all towards a cremation ceremony but the total cost is over $4,000.

I hate asking for help, but I can’t do this alone.

If you can donate, anything it helps. If you can’t, please just share this. Please.

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Hold your loved ones a little tighter tonight. Life can change in a instant and please remember to say the things you really want to tell someone because so quickly that chance is taken away and your left with a heavy heart full of wishes and should of's.

Rest easy my Son, my baby. If each step I took was to track how much I love you I'd of circled the world a 100 times over and im still walking.

Until we’re together again because Im your only mother as you are my only Son. ️