I've always worked. Full time. Sometimes extra. I take care of my own stuff. Or at least I always have.
But a while back, my mom had a medical emergency. I did what anyone would do. I covered what I could without thinking twice about it.
The total debt from that time is around $2,000 US dollars. I know that doesn't sound like much to some people. But where I live, with our currency and our economy, it's a different story. You can't just work your way out of it. The math doesn't add up.
Here's what my life looks like right now:
I make my monthly payment. Then I have almost nothing left. So I borrow again to pay for rent, for food, for basics. The debt doesn't go down. It actually grows, because interest keeps adding on. I pay. Then I owe more. I pay again. I owe even more.
I'm trapped in a loop that never ends.
And it's breaking me.
I'm not sleeping. When I do, I wake up at 3am with my heart pounding, staring at the ceiling, running the same numbers through my head. I'm working my ass off trying to get out of it but it's just not working and I've been at it for too long it has taken a huge toll on my health and mental state. I just want to breath.
I'd do it all again for my mom in a heartbeat. She's my mom. But I didn't know it would still be crushing me this long after.
I'm not asking for a lot. I just want to clear this $2k so I can actually keep what I earn. So my payments go somewhere. So I can sleep. So I can remember what it feels like to not be drowning.
If you can help, thank you. If you can't, I understand completely. Just sharing this means more than you know.

