Recovery fund in memory of Behrad

My name is Dani, On the night of September 6th my entire life was completely turned around and I can bo longer do this on my own. My story follows:

My husband Behrad suffered greatly from his depression, he was a kind, intelligent and passionate Electrical Engineer student at the University of Maryland. He worked on programs that analyze brain scans as well as many other projects. He was only 3 months away from completing his PHD program. 

His loss has left a great void in our lives that will never be filled. I’ve lost an incredible husband, father, friend and provider. My life will never be the same. 

Behrad tried to cope with his mental health struggles going as far as seeing therapists and psychiatrist but unfortunately these were not able to help him. His pain was too great and his only mission was to find relief and peace. Something that with the prescriptions that were given to him was not possible and drove him to make the decision to take his own life. 

I found Behrad the night of September 6th when I arrived home from work, but I was entirely too late. Our lives will never be the same without him and the pain of knowing I will never be able to hold him or touch him again is unbearable. Everyday I wish this was just a nightmare and I hope only to wake up. 

I know this is now my reality but it’s a difficult reality to face. I understand that only time will heal this pain although at the moment it doesn’t seem true. 

Our family has been left devastated and broken and I don’t really know what else to do at this point. I’m not usually one to ask for help and it took a lot and a long time to do this, but at this point I’m desperate and realize I can’t do everything myself. 

The debts left behind by Behrad are unmanageable by myself and I no longer know what to do. I’m hardly thinking clearly and the responsibility of managing a restaurant became too great for my mental health status. So I’m currently unemployed and trying to figure out what to do with my life now that he’s gone. 

I appreciate any help given to me and understand that this is difficult time for everyone financially, so any little bit helps. My credit cards are maxed out and my bank accounts negative. The funeral expenses and memorial expenses were large and our bills and the lifestyle we were living were not meant to be afforded by one person and together we were able to sustain it. But with out Behrad? I just can’t handle it alone. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.

It’s now been a year since losing behrad and the family and i are still devastated. Thank you for your donations, it’s the only thing that has helped to keep us afloat