Recovering from Devastating Apartment Fire

Friday night, I returned home from work. I was not even home for 20 minutes when I heard smoke and fire. My whole apartment was on fire. I lost my entire world; all 9 of my cats were in that house. I feel so lost, so broken. I have nothing.

The fire spread so fast. I kept trying to go back in to get them, but no one would let me. All I keep tasting is the fire and the smell. I can't eat; I barely sleep. I keep asking why. Why? I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't deserve this, and my babies sure didn't deserve this.

I keep going back to the house and praying maybe some of them got out. I keep putting food down. My whole world seems so lost. I have nothing but the clothes on my back and the vehicle I own, that's it. I lost my home, my world, my babies. All I do is cry. I'm so sick, even water comes up. I can't keep anything down. I hope no one ever has to feel the way I feel every day now.