I've had a gambling addiction for years and it took me 4 years to admit it and stop. I'm banned for life, blacklisted from casinos and online gambling forever. I am in rehab and receiving therapy, but it's an insane struggle getting back on my feet, the goal is just a random number, anything helps, I don't expect help, just seeing if I can get any form of relief.

I have 2 kids aged 3 and 5, I lost custody of them due to my addiction, I have visitation rights under the condition I remain financially stable, and as of right now, I am not. The last relapse almost destroyed me.

It put me in hospital after I crashed my car from a psychotic episode, broken ribs. I got lucky to walk out of it but I'm thankful I did

Thank you for reading this.