Hi, this is Andrew

As some of you know I am in recovery and live with a dual diagnosis. I'm going to be completely transparent right now. These last three weeks have been devestating to the people around me and I am left with so much work to do to get my life and my health back in order. The reality of my disease is a lack of mental clarity for the present and the future. In the last three weeks I have lost so much to this disease. This is an emergency for me and as most people know I do not like to ask for help. In recovery we call it "The Thousand Pound Phone" too heavy to lift when you have to ask for help. I don't call and ask for help because I want to do it on my own. This time I can't. I have to accept help if it is offered and this time I am asking for it. Yes I'm desperate. Yes I am thankful even if you only read this and all you can do is think of me. Desperate times call for me to get honest and ask for the immediate help I need.