Rachel Nowlan, loving mother and wife❤️

Hi my name is Olivia, and I am creating a this fundraiser to help with costs for her funeral and burial. We were always a low income family, and I want to see if I am able to help her raise some money to have a nice service and a proper burial. Please help us if you can, it would mean to absolute world to me and her family. Thank you

Dear Mom,

I can’t even believe to discribe the pain that i’m in right now. We were always fighting and having stupid arguments and I will live with that guilt for the rest of my life. I thought I was going to have more time with you. More time to spend, talk and laugh. I was so stubborn and didn’t come see you when you wanted me to. I will regret forever knowing that we weren’t in a good place when you left. I’m so sorry we couldn’t get more time together, more time to bond, and more time to love you. I wish i would’ve just come to see you and been there for you more but now your gone and I can’t even tell you how sorry I am.

I love you so so much, and I don’t know how i’m

going to live in a world without my mom in it. You loved me unconditionally and just wanted me to be by your side and i’m sorry i failed you. I’m so sorry I fought with you all the time when i should’ve taken these moments to hold you tighter and love you while you were suffering. I am so devastated beyond believe i can’t even think straight. I can’t believe watched your heart stop and take your lazy breath. I just hope you can see me and know that i love you so fucking much. You were always there for me and loved me so much. You were the best loving mother i could’ve asked for. I’m so sorry I let you down. There wasn’t enough time with you and now I won’t get anymore time with you. I wish you could come back and talk to me one last time so i can get a proper goodbye but i will forever know that we were fighting and I just hope you know how much i love you and how proud I am of you. I will never comprehend how you won’t be here to see me buy my first house, or be able to come to my wedding, or see any of your grandchildren. This doesn’t feel real.

You fought for so long, and i’m happy you’re not in pain anymore. October 2nd 12:40a.m. you left us. Life is too fucking short and you did not get enough of it. I love you forever and always mommy, i wish you never left me. Rest in piece to the kindest soul ever, goodbye mom❤️

I love my mom so much, and she was taken from us so suddenly that we were not prepared. My heart is completely broken and this has been the hardest thing I have ever gone through. 22 and I no longer have my momma. She deserves to have something special, and have a place where everyone can appreciate her life and love her. Thank you to everyone who has continued to support us. Your support means everything to me