I don’t know how to even write this out. I wish I didn’t even have to write this out either. It’s true what people say; it doesn’t get easier and for sure it will not. The thought of losing a parent is sad. Even when having nightmares and quickly going to check if they are alive, it’s a huge relief. Unfortunately for my family, my pops wasn’t. It’s a memory that will never fade and the day that happened. My pops was everything. He made sure the whole family was good but also the people/friends/strangers he would surround himself with were good too, he loved his family and his friends.

On Thursday 25, he wasn’t feeling well until my sister called the ambulance. I quickly rushed to my parents' house when my sister was messaging me to come home quick since I was going for lunch to my parents' house. As soon as I got there, my dad was laying down while paramedics took care of him. After they helped him get on the bed, the last memories of him were watching the paramedics close the door and telling my dad, “Hey dad, everything is going to be okay.” My pops said, “Yes, mijo.” But I didn’t know it would be the last goodbye. My mind was okay; I’m going to see him in the hospital room being a trooper. But unfortunately, things took a turn. He suffered a heart attack and the paramedics did everything. Unfortunately, we got the news in a private room that he didn’t make it. This pain is a pain that I wouldn’t want NOBODY going through. It feels like when a kid is lost at Walmart wondering where the parents go and running trying to look for them.

So please take many pictures with your parents. Put the damn phone down when visiting them. Give them a hug and always, always tell them you love 'em. Because there’s going to be a time where you’ll be saying it at the tomb instead of them listening with their own ears and heart.

I love you pops and I miss you every day. I just wish I would’ve told you I love you and I appreciate everything you did for us. Te amamos mucho y nos haces mucha falta. I can’t believe instead of buying you a better truck, we’re here buying you a coffin.

please help us lay our father to rest, all proceeds will go to his viewing and casket and other misc toward the funeral. Any amount is appreciated. Thank you guys for the love and support.