I am a 42 year old mother and wife to the most amazing family anyone could ask for. I have Triple Negative Breast Cancer. This Cancer is the smallest percentage of the breast Cancers but it is also the greatest killer. Statistically the chances of living a year are small on this Cancer but me being stage four makes me the lowest percentage of likely to live at all.
Last October there was some conclusive evidence of a treatment that works to actually slow down and sometimes eliminate the TNBC cells. In Canada the moment they have information like this they can start trials but it generally takes around two to five years to make it an actual treatment. Around three weeks ago I was informed that the cancer had entered my brain. The timeline ended. I officially became dead man walking. The treatment choices were brain radiation right now. I did the treatment and was offered Chemo again to take away the rest of the traveling cancer. Over the past few weeks I had to come to terms with the possibility of dying any moment. If you are ever faced with this I assure you that it the most difficult thing you may ever have to grasp ahold of in your life. At least that is how it has been with me. Everything I ever believed or held on to got turned around. I was faced with the possibility of throw in the towel and die well pain controlled or continue to take the treatments and possibly extend the time I have here. Everyday I have on this earth is an amazing gift and I choose to live what ever moments I have left to live them. So I am canvasing for life and the possibility of the cure for me. I really have nothing to lose as I am dead man walking. But in reality I am living more now than I have ever lived in my life. I feel so much Joy and love for people that I am bursting. I am trying to do maybe the impossible but as it is right now every day I am breathing defies what people think are possible so why not try for the cure for me. The treatments have to be paid for out of pocket so we are relying on the help of other people. The way I see it is I live in Alberta and there are more than a million people. If everyone gave a dollar than I would be able to start treatment tomorrow. I have to believe in the impossible because every day I have to wake up to be with my kids. Just yesterday my 16 year old daughter came to me in a panic saying " Mom you need to take me grad dress shopping next year because you are my Mom and I need you to do this with me." I need to do that for her. The genetic component of this disease gives all my children a higher possibility of getting it. I need to be cured so that they know that they can be too if it comes up that they might die early on their children. I am going to win because I want to live. This earth and the people in it are too precious for me to leave it behind or worry about the pain I might have to endure to get there. I am so grateful for any support I get with this. Your prayers and your expectations of hearing that I am alive mean so much to me. Thank you for being a part of my cure and my journey. I love you all so much.