I'm a 32 year old post op trans woman living in Toronto. Despite three years of hormones and extensive facial hair removal, I am frequently misgendered in public and am often endangered/harassed in public. I can sometimes "pass" in photographs, but in everyday life and from different angles, I am usually read as male. I have intense gender dysphoria which makes it difficult for me to navigate the world and live a decent life when I am frequently targeted by other people because I'm a visible trans woman. I've struggled to find supportive/safe employment because of misgendering as well as accessing basic public institutions like transit or medical care.
I have been trying to safe enough money to pay for facial feminization surgeries to help me be safer in public and improve my mental health, but they are very expensive and not covered by insurance/provincial healthcare. I don't have family that I could rely on for funding and I already have significant debt from paying for facial and body hair removal, hormones, and a previous trans related surgery. While I'm still trying to cover some of the costs myself, I would appreciate any help in meeting my goals. The average costs of facial feminization surgery in Canada is roughly 15k to 20k, so any support would help me meet my goals. I want to go to a surgeon in Montreal (close to where I live) who specializes in facial feminization surgery.
For me, the goal of facial feminization surgery is to lessen my dysphoria and be able to safely/comfortably participate in public life without being harassed/misgendered/assaulted. The daily burden of being afraid and worrying that people will target me/misgender me and the extreme distress that it causes me has a significant impact on my ability to live my life. Being able to have this surgery would make a huge difference in my life. All I want is to not be afraid in public and to live my life as myself.