Precious Tula Bea
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Our dear best friends Faye & Jamie have been through the unimaginable of losing their precious baby Tula ❤️ lots of people have said they wanted to do something for them as felt helpless, so thought I would set this up for those who would like to help towards Tulas funeral/memorial , I will copy fayes story that she shared on her own Facebook page which was truly heartbreaking and couldn’t imagine what she has gone through alone because of Co-vid 19..
On my birthday the 23rd of March, the first day of lock down I went into hospital to check on our baby as I was 20weeks pregnant and bleeding... and I never left....they said if I could go 24 hours without bleeding I could go home, I couldn't.
I counted down the days just laying in a hospital bed scared to move just waiting to get to 23 weeks when that day came I had a massive bleed and was blue lighted to Brighton hospital, was given steroid injections to boost baby's lungs and hooked up to a magnisium sulphate drip to help her brain incase she was born early, I managed to keep her in for 3 more days then at 4am in the morning I had her, our Tula Bea Mceniry was born 1lb 2oz. She was breathing and taken to intensive care where she was thriving and getting stronger everyday. 5 days later i was told she had a purforated bowel and she needed surgery immediately and that Tula was so small she might not make it. Poor Jamie had to meet our baby for the first time and potentially say goodbye it was heartbreaking., We sat terrified waiting for what felt like a lifetime then a knock at the door came and she was OK!, Tulas plan was to just recover and slowly get better, but on day 9 she was given 2 hours to live as her lungs were starting to give up, but she turned things around and was back on track! I couldn't believe it! . Day 11 received a phone call at midnight saying Tula wasn't responding well to treatment and they was running out of options and could Jamie and I come in and start talking about end of life care.... I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart 100000 times, I thought she was doing well, I thought she was on the mend. , On Thursday the 7th april our daughter took her last breaths in my arms. The first time I got to hold my baby was the last. My life will never be the same. I can still hear the sounds of the machines and the alarms going off in my head, I can still smell the hospital.Beacuse of covid 19 its like she never existed because no one got to meet her. Because of covid 19 I birthed alone. Because of covid 19 I spent 6 weeks on my own, as no visitors allowed. Because of covid 19 I spent 6 weeks away from my husband and children at home. I missed 6 weeks of there lives which would of been worth it 10 times over if Tula would of been ok, but she's not, Ive lost her, I'm devostated, I'm angry, I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm heartbroken why her? why me? why us? I just can't get my head around it. My body is telling me I've had a baby but she's not here, a piece of me is missing and I desperately want her back. TULA BEA MCENIRY you have made me the proudest mummy the way you fought so hard to stay in this world, you were just too tiny and precious my darling and I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. My heart hurts so bad, and I will long for you forever. You will always be with me. Rip my beautiful teeny tiny Tula.
I counted down the days just laying in a hospital bed scared to move just waiting to get to 23 weeks when that day came I had a massive bleed and was blue lighted to Brighton hospital, was given steroid injections to boost baby's lungs and hooked up to a magnisium sulphate drip to help her brain incase she was born early, I managed to keep her in for 3 more days then at 4am in the morning I had her, our Tula Bea Mceniry was born 1lb 2oz. She was breathing and taken to intensive care where she was thriving and getting stronger everyday. 5 days later i was told she had a purforated bowel and she needed surgery immediately and that Tula was so small she might not make it. Poor Jamie had to meet our baby for the first time and potentially say goodbye it was heartbreaking., We sat terrified waiting for what felt like a lifetime then a knock at the door came and she was OK!, Tulas plan was to just recover and slowly get better, but on day 9 she was given 2 hours to live as her lungs were starting to give up, but she turned things around and was back on track! I couldn't believe it! . Day 11 received a phone call at midnight saying Tula wasn't responding well to treatment and they was running out of options and could Jamie and I come in and start talking about end of life care.... I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart 100000 times, I thought she was doing well, I thought she was on the mend. , On Thursday the 7th april our daughter took her last breaths in my arms. The first time I got to hold my baby was the last. My life will never be the same. I can still hear the sounds of the machines and the alarms going off in my head, I can still smell the hospital.Beacuse of covid 19 its like she never existed because no one got to meet her. Because of covid 19 I birthed alone. Because of covid 19 I spent 6 weeks on my own, as no visitors allowed. Because of covid 19 I spent 6 weeks away from my husband and children at home. I missed 6 weeks of there lives which would of been worth it 10 times over if Tula would of been ok, but she's not, Ive lost her, I'm devostated, I'm angry, I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm heartbroken why her? why me? why us? I just can't get my head around it. My body is telling me I've had a baby but she's not here, a piece of me is missing and I desperately want her back. TULA BEA MCENIRY you have made me the proudest mummy the way you fought so hard to stay in this world, you were just too tiny and precious my darling and I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. My heart hurts so bad, and I will long for you forever. You will always be with me. Rip my beautiful teeny tiny Tula.
Organizer and beneficiary
Ceri Fuller
Organizer
Faye Mceniry
Beneficiary
