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Dear Champions and Friends,
My name is Ms. Kelly. In September 2023 I was seriously injured by the hands of a bad actor (assault). I'm disfigured, disabled and in tremendous pain.
X-rays from (healthy uninjured) 2022 compared to (injured) 2023 show the significant change in alignment which alters function. The MRI reveals the injury left me with three herniated cervical discs.
I have torn ligaments, dislocated collarbone, shoulder, jaw and ribs. My spine is 'stacked', my torso compressed. The muscles in my neck, back and chest seemed to have lost most of their energy or sense of purpose. In all of this, I experience partial numbness in my lips, face, neck, hands and feet, great muscle weakness and ataxia. I feel my cervical vertebrae against my throat where it shouldn’t be.
Swallowing and speaking is challenging. As a vocal performer, the injury is unfathomable and I try my best to not panic but instead to place that energy in God’s hands and my innate healing ability. I’ve plummeted from an under-muscled 135 lbs to 124 lbs.
My health care providers have different views on outcome. Some predict six-months to one-year for recovery, others are not so optimistic. I’m determined to get better sooner and completely, in spite of my terror when I touch the back of my neck to find a spine I do not recognize.
I’m a mature single American female legally living in the E.U. I’m alone trying to advocate for myself in a system I’m not too familiar with, waiting to get on a waiting list to see what support, if any, I can legally apply for through my status as an independent contractor. So far, the process looks impressively time-consuming, a luxury I do not have. I do not that due to my visa, I cannot apply for social disability. This is not an option for me.
Unable to bare weight and limited in movement - normal tasks like washing my hair, tying my shoes and dressing are painful and difficult; activities like cleaning and cooking are beyond my depth. Though I am a devoted mother of cats - 9-years and counting - I’m unable to take care of them in a normal way due to my injury. They are in foster care for the time being. Surely, I wish to be reunited with them as soon as possible.
I require skilled non-invasive healing therapies, food/nutrition and basic life essentials (e.g., rent) and home care help for any chance at recovery.
My only recourse now is to ask for assistance in the form of a fundraiser to keep my head above water, to get the effective treatment I need as soon as possible for a prompt recovery and return to normal functioning, so help me God.
I live in a frugal and practical way. All donations will go directly to treatment and basic living needs.
When I’m recovered, I will look forward to returning to life, bringing my cats home (in foster care until I'm better) and rolling up my sleeves to work again - not only as a vocal performer, but as a clinical manual therapist that completely understands what it means to be alone and in pain. Many people rely on me, now I must rely on God to lift your heart.
I’m grateful for your empathy, prayers and support! Please share this link with your community.
Ms. Kelly
UPDATE: 13 October 2023:
- It is confirmed that I do NOT qualify for any social service disability insurance. My only recourse is to ask for help.
- I can now lift one kilo to my chest. Though drinking from a straw is less stressful on my neck+ at the moment. This is a quantifiable step forward.
- I’m determined to get well, eliminate weakness and become better than ever with strength, mobility, productivity and creativity - and to bring my cats back home to me, ASAP.
- One of my cats passed away. I don't know how to process this.
UPDATE 24 October 2023:
Steven Klein began this campaign on my behalf as "Organizer" when I couldn't. Amazing donors* (listed below). If you do not see your name on THIS campaign it because the names weren't transferable. Rest assured the trusted Steven transferred your donations to me and treatment has begun.
*Immense Gratitude:
Melissa McManis, $100
Tanja Seegers-Stevens, $50
Samantha Blyn, $100
G Muller, $50
Montgomery Norton, $50
Anonymous, $10
Mathilde MARINET, $50
Jody Potiker, $100
Diana Del Castillo, $500
hadass shlagman, $500
Gary Virginia, $20
Michelle Greeff, $50
Albert Sola Renart, $80
Marten Reker, $500
Cedric Feinstein, $300
Helaine McFerron, $50
Brenda Schumacher, $50
Steven Klein, $50
Tereza Hakobyan-Lolli, $50
Bhimi Cayce, $50
... and to folks that responded with loving words and/or shared the link with their friends, family and community to support my healing process and goals in recovery.
UPDATE 5 November 2023:
- I had an exam / consult with an allopathic neurologist last week. In spite of waiting WEEKS for this appointment, he was not in possession of my MRI. Fortunately, I had a copy of it with me. Unfortunately, he does have the hardware on his computer to look at the data. He'll call me next week after the clinic uploads the data.
- I'm to see an orthopedist, TBD.
- My symptoms have increased. The pain is ridiculous - and while I have a high tolerance to pain - enduring fatigue puts chinks in my armor that is now too heavy to wear.
UPDATE 20 November 2023:
- No word from the neurologist. I wasn't impressed that he actually did a karate chop like move during my exam with him. He saw my neck brace. I informed him that I have torn ligaments and a herniated disc. He saw me hunched over, using a cane, and could barely speak, certainly not in a normal way and he literally hit my neck. When I screamed in pain, he asked, "That hurts?" This launched a choking / gasping for air attack that happens more often when I'm trying to eat or after I reach out for something, (i.e, put on a shirt, try to wash my hair.) He acted like it wasn't happening. Suffice it to say, I'm not I'm not surprised and not impressed that I didn't hear from him. I wrote the office manager, no response. My general practitioner hasn't heard from him either. This is from a major medical center. Note: as a patient, I do not have a good track record with doctors. They hurt me 9/10 times. CAM specialists are at a loss too. Too afraid to treat me or they do exactly what I tell them NOT to do, even though they promise they won't do what I tell them not to do, ignore their promise and my wisdom and boundary, do the thing and as a consequence, do more damage. There are few exceptions, continued in the next point.
- I found a person in Germany that specializes in torn ligaments and herniated discs. He is good and good for me and my case. Funding for treatment, travel and accommodations is sought. He won't hurt me and he understands my injury, how to treat it and he understands trauma. He is not an idiot and I feel this is my clear path forward toward recovery, healing and independence; my return to society.
- I've received donated groceries for this week. Thank you!
- My cats are still in foster care. Without them I'm virtually alone 24/7. Is is brutal.
UPDATE 24 November 2023:
- Yesterday was Thanksgiving (US). I'm grateful and awed for the support I've received. Happy Thanksgiving!
- There are two local practitioners that have helped me move the needle - even a millimeter is something to celebrated - with energy work and specific non-invasive energy / manual therapy. Between them in the good doctor in Germany, I believe I've found my team.
- I miss my cats.
- I miss singing and playing instruments and performing. I pray.
UPDATE 4 December 2023:
- Rent is paid
- I'm writing poetry and prose
- Yesterday I spoke to an intimate room about trauma
- This week I will see the specialist in Germany. I'm counting the hours.
- I've yet to receive my appointment with the orthopedist or receive the results of my exam with the neurologist.
- I pray to get my cats back home this month and before Christmas. Too many days alone ain't good, no sir.
UPDATE 11 December 2023:
- Had lifeblood analysis to show: Rolo-effect, a response to non-native EMF.
- The 'lines' are the fibrins the body creates to repair torn ligaments. So my body is doing its best to self-repair in an electronic world longing for nature.
UPDATE 23 December 2023:
- Received frequency transmission and manual therapy in Germany. The focus of the frequency was to support the healing of the ligaments and reduce the trauma-response. The manual therapy was very skillful and focused on my neck and trapezius. This moved the needle a bit. I am grateful for the relief it gave. I'm grateful for his attention and care. Staying in a dorm room youth hostel didn't provide enough sleep or rest. I do what I can, leading with what works to anchor my mindset and faith forward.
- Still no word from the neurologist. I'm not impressed.
- Appointment with orthopedist is a long wait. Who knew they were so popular!
- Will have treatment with two vetted and trusted DC when available. I've experienced their work and integrity.
- Cats not home. :(
UPDATE 20 January 2024:
- Found an osteopath that can help. Will use future donations for travel, treatment and accommodations. She does the mouth / neck work I need.
- Will see the orthopedic surgeon this month.
- Still have tremors and tension is shoulder. Experiencing more 'hunchback' due to tension, lack of touch and treatment, warmth and movement - restricted from injury.
- Still feel like my tongue is heavy and palate 'collapsed'
- Still writing poetry. I miss singing. "Miss"is an understatement. Singing fills my body with my soul. Recovery means I'll sing again.
Please share this link with your network?
I've got a very long way to go and the financial stress, on top of the physical, emotional, mental, spiritual stress and isolation is more than enough. I've sprouted a bunch of grays and unprecedented wrinkles due to the stress. My body is screaming for help. I'm doing what I can to nurture my body and heal. Please share the link. Thank you!
UPDATE 1 March 2024:
- grateful for two practitioners in the Netherlands that have donated sessions that help give some relief when it is possible to see them.
- follow-up with surgeon this month.
- Praying to get to the osteopath. Donations required. I'd also like to pay the two practitioners that donated to me. This repair job and healing isn't a one-off and folks have their different skill sets. The osteopath is the only one that can do a particularly type of work I need for my mouth and skull.
- I feel too exhausted, cold, isolated and lonely.
- The pain level and chocking symptoms are intense. I'm very hunchback.
UPDATE 28 July 2024:
Some random man on the street spit in my face. His salvia felt like acid when it touched my lips and tongue. I got sick immediately and started to decline. Went to Church and prayed.
UPDATE 1 August 2024:
I am grateful for the few skilled practitioners that donated some sessions to me during this year. You know who you are and when I'm better, I'll return to your generosity beyond my words and prayers.
My symptoms are prolonged. I feel exhausted. Hanging on in wait for the precise treatment I need, the nutrition and nurturing and nature I need, has depleted me along with the pain and insomnia.
UPDATE 30 August 2024:
Well, last week I had a cardiac event. I feel exhausted. I feel scared. I've a host of new symptoms that are terrifying. I wish there was HBOT here. A full intensive with a good functional neurologist costs 6K. I ramp up my prayer game to heal my entire body. A massive challenged was just met with with another massive challenge. Please donate. Please pray.
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