Hello As a lot of you know, my Momma Kelli Vocke is having pretty serious spinal surgery this Friday to hopefully give her a chance to not lose complete mobility and use of her right arm and hand. Needless to say these past few weeks have been beyond chaotic and stressful! I know I am emotionally drained already with all of this! The fact that i/ we are absolutely terrified about her making it through this is almost debilitating in itself. As bad as it is for the kids and I, Im sure it doesn't come close to how she must feel. I wish I could take some of the stress off of her. On top of all that comes with the surgery, we do live together and literally split our bills and make it work together. That's changing to only 1 income to pay the same amount of bills, needs, etc. We just make it by with nothing to spare already. With our rent and bills/needs and all that there's not much if anything leftover. Sadly we have no savings of any kind. As of right now, we barely have enough gas to get her to the he hospital Thursday morning and back home. That leaves us not being able to be there or go back and forth while she's there. Right now we're not even sure how we're going to be able to be with her as much as possible. If I could afford to I wouldn't leave her side besides picking the kids up or something like that. HDG to Bel Air doesn't seem that far until you have to pay almost $5 a gallon now. We would be beyond grateful for anything anyone could do to help! If you can't help financially please pray for her & the kids, we need all we can get. It took everything I had in me to put our families financial and health issues our for the world to see, I'm beyond embarrassed and ashamed. Feels like I'm a failure to my family because I dont know how to fix this one :( I can't help thinking ahead already and worrying about how I'm going to have to tell these kids if we have to leave here, and probably being separated. And I'll have to be there for mom if she needs any kind of care afterwards or something God forbid goes wrong. I have a tendency to do that, look as the glass half empty and expect disappointment that way it doesn't hurt as bad when it happens because u were ready for it. If everything works out good, then I'll get to be extra happy and grateful. I know I'm sure it's probably not the best way to look at things but it's a wrong coping mechanism I guess. Our faith is the only thing that is keeping us sane right now. For me it is for sure. I would take her place in a minute if I could! All we can do if be there for her now, and we'll take it one day/minute/second at a time while she gets there. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I will try to keep everyone updated on everything as it comes and the day of surgery as quickly as I can. Again I feel really bad asking for handouts/help, and putting all of our "problems" out online for the world or make anyone feel "sorry for us". I can promise I am not trying to do any of those things, this is called total desperation to help my family, the people that I love more than life itself! God Bless you all! ❤️

Kaci Vocke-(Kellis oldest daughter)

& Family