Ive always hoped for the best, I knew I might but never actually thought I’d be making one of these things but here I am.

I’ve been diagnosed with 22 (and counting) different ailments that have started to significantly impact my daily life more and more each day, here’s a few: degenerative disc disease, ankylosing spondylitis, autonomic-dysreflexia, and a 75% torn labral hip (that Orthopedics won’t see till October.) Despite all this I try to push myself through with a smile!

About two weeks ago I felt a sharp pain go up my spine with intense head pressure followed with a complete loss of vision and ended up going to the emergency room and as they’re still trying to figure out what’s wrong, my symptoms keep getting worse. I’m having constant visual snow now, weird sparkles in my peripherals more and more, my heart rate goes from 65-165 just going from sitting to standing, my temperature jumps around from 96 to 100 back to a 97 in a matter of less than 10 minutes.

Now, I sit here in the hospital on day 12 waiting on spinal tap results with the end of the month getting closer and closer and my financial responsibilities get bigger and bigger with specialists, medications, hospital bills and daily life expenses it makes it hard for me to get back to doing things I enjoy doing not just for work but as hobbies.

* Im a realtor with one sale under my belt but I want to work with section 8 and with VA because everyone deserves to have a place that makes them feel safe at night when they lay their head as I’ve experienced homelessness before.

* Im a Sigma Gama Rho Philo who loves helping out in bettering the community and wants to be able to participate and do more for my community with my sisters

* I helped organize a charity show that helps give instruments to children and am working towards doing more shows like it

* I play music locally with friends around town and love bringing smiles to people passing by and getting people to move their feet and I’ll see if I can make a YouTube playlist for friends to put stuff up but I did record a cover here in the hospital!

* Since my mobility isn’t all that well I’ve been learning about different plants and how to use them medicinally and my roommates been helping me re arrange them around our little porch.

Yeah there’s a lot of bad that’s been happening and if I’m completely honest I’m thankful for what I do know but absolutely terrified of all the uncertainty. What I know for certain is that things can get better, people can be kind, and life doesn’t have to be as hard as it tends to be sometimes. Whatever happens, expect me to still have the biggest smile on my face because that’s just who I am ♥️