Please help me move forward with my life.

My name is Sarah Beals, I am 28 years old I have 4 children and I recently escaped a violent relationship. I am thoroughly embarrassed I'm in this situation but I need help to get my children into a safe and stable home. I'm currently searching for employment in an area I cannot disclose at this time. My only goal at this moment is to survive again. I want to go back to living a normal happy healthy and functional life for my kids. For the last year, I've been silent about my abuser. I've realized that breaking the silence is what it will take to make sure nobody else endures the measure of pain I went through. So I'm finally speaking out about my journey in hopes to heal and help other women in the process. With that comes a lot of embarrassing avenues. Like being at rock bottom. I have no home but I'm choosing to see the brighter side of things. I do have a lot of support from everyone including the internet. There are people I don't even know showing their support. It has helped my mental health immensely. I want to share a little bit of my journey with everyone. I moved to Humboldt County. February 13, 2022, less than a month after my move here. I fully regretted my decision. I saw for the first time who Javier James was. I had heard of Javier's past, but I didn't witness any of it until a month after my move. I left behind my whole life. Feeling forced to stay here. I was blinded by his lies and manipulation. He manipulated me and made me think the worst of myself. I know what you are all probably thinking. Why did I stay? I ask myself that same question daily. I stayed because time and time again things got worse. I was forced to believe that I wouldn't make it on my own. He took everything I had in me including my strength to carry on every day. I became very depressed I didn't want to leave the house and my will to carry on began to fade. March 7, 2023, was the night I convinced myself this was it for me. I battled my thoughts as he came running for me in the middle of the street with a knife. It was at that very moment my thoughts came spewing over me. Will this be the last time I see my children? Will this be the last time I was able to tell my sister I loved her? Would this be it for me? Is he going to kill me? Right here the middle of the street while my children are inside? As soon as he made contact with me I braced myself. I knew what was to come. He then attacked me. He began to kick and punch me. Then proceeded to stomp me into the concrete in front of our home. I wish this on no woman ever. As I quickly rebutted myself because my 3-month-old baby was inside alone. I came to my feet. My 8-year-old son was already at the neighbor's house asking for help. He shared with the neighbor that Mom and Javier had a fight and Javier has a knife. They quickly called 911 and the Rio Dell Police Department came promptly. As they drove away after him. I had a sudden sigh of relief looking at my children thinking thank god I am still here. From there Javier fled the scene. He went Northbound on 101 but ended up running from the officers into the southbound lane heading towards oncoming traffic. He then ditched the vehicle and began to flee on foot. Javier ran from law enforcement for 19 days before he was found in Butte County Oroville they arrested him on March 26 2023 at approximately 9:31pm. I am grateful to be writing this statement today. I want every woman out there to LISTEN to those stories. Don't let them roll off your shoulder or think you can change these kinds of people. I am grateful for everyones help. I know times are tough right now and I promise to make every dollar count. My goal here is to raise enough money for a deposit on an apartment as I search for employment to provide for myself and my children. I want to thank everyone who shared my story and continues to spread awareness about who Javier is. I know I am not alone in this and I appreciate everyones support.