I have always struggled to maintain myself financially, although I have tried and will continue to try to learn to be better, but I have a family I have to provide for, and so pride must be set aside.

I have suffered depression for 15 years and developed anxiety as well. In the past 15 months, during this pandemic, it has only gotten worse. This has affected my ability to hold on to a job, though I have tried so hard to stabilise my professional life, and am hopeful soon I will have something I can do long term.

i try and provide my absolute best, as any Dad or partner should, for my family, but continuous knockbacks have had adverse effects on my confidence, mental stability, physical health and my ability to be a good father and partner.

I have only ever been able to treat my family to a holiday once, which is an area where I feel a failure, but this isn’t about getting that for them, I will.......I will earn that.

I am asking for peoples help, much to my embarrassment and shame, in clearing the important things that keep slipping from my grasp, the ability to pay for electricity, gas, internet, bills......for just a little while, giving me a chance to repair myself and focus solely on bettering our future myself, (in conjunction with my partner doing the same).

I hate that I have had to resort to this, but I do not feel or can not think of anything else. Other options are not available to me.

any help you can give will be greatly received, appreciated and one day paid forward. Thank you.