Friends, I need help. I have been in a relationship with my son's  father that has been going nowhere for a while and it is now to the point where I do not feel safe to stay. I have endured a lot of emotional distress staying in this relationship. Taken blame for many things that were not my fault. Shouldered guilt for my own trauma, thinking it was the reason our relationship wasnt working. I should have left a long time ago but for the same reason I didn't before is now why I'm here asking for help. I didn't leave because I didn't have the money to leave. Limited resources equals limited choices. I still do not have the money to leave because I have been a stay-at-home mom and have been focusing on my kid, repairing my mental health after a tragic loss, and then my own rape. After my son was born, I crashed. The postpartum depression coupled with ruminating on my rape, and I became a shell of a human. I let insecurities and depression keep me in this relationship that has been toxic and only depleted my meager mental health achievements. This is me trying to take back my power. I need to get a car so that I can work full time. Public transportation  in San Diego is unreliable and inconvenient. Whatever I am blessed with from you all will go to buy a car (literally anything safe enough to get me and my son around) and hopefully get us into a room or studio. I can do the rest. I have always been able to do the rest but I thought I was building a life with someone. I was wrong. It's very hard to admit that you were wrong, but I've been wrong about this relationship and I need help to leave. Most women stuck in bad relationships due to finances suffer in silence for years. I do not want to be 'most women'. I want out. I want to heal and raise a son who won't be subjected to the years of screaming matches I witnessed with my parents who "stayed together for the kids". For my son's sake, for his positive development and mental health, it's time for me to leave. Please help me.