Please donate to mom's emergency after life arrangements

Please donate for moms celebration of life and arrangement expenses...

So, mom's update... I was laying in her bed tonight trying to figure out what to write, and I was thinking I saw her on Thursday and maybe I should've stayed later that night, but I was hungry and wanted to go eat... I hugged her, and I saw her face as she started crying and looked at the floor and backed up her little wheelchair into her room as I left. Maybe I should've tried to bring her home harder; she never came back home. Penny is fine with Tiffany. Maybe I should've taken her Thursday. Maybe I should've visited more, but it was so hard for me after working and mentally. I wish she let me take more photos through life. I wish I could ask her where she put things or just questions I have. Regardless, today the doctor called me, so my options changed. We will have a meeting tomorrow about palliative care and stopping treatments. I made so many phone calls today I don't even remember half of what I did. Her mental state is decreasing, and she's no longer opening her eyes or responding to much. She's still breathing on her own, but this time she's declining mentally. I will be going through my options on how to keep her comfortable.

With that said, I spoke to Linda, and she will be putting a GoFundMe up. I need to start preparing as my time is limited, and I have to think of everything. Her insurance takes up to 9 weeks to process and 10 to clear. I will need a down payment to make arrangements for her celebration of life. I have to do a lot, and I don't want to do anything. I'm at a loss for words, and I'm not doing very well emotionally at the moment. I'm also out of work to take care of this, probably until the end of the school year. I spoke to my district, but I'm going to be in dire need of people to possibly help one last time for mom with a GoFundMe for me to finally put her to rest when this comes to an end. These last 2 years have completely drained my soul, and I know she's tired too, but neither of us can keep surviving this way. I love my mom enough to know that it's time to let go. I'm scared and devastated. I haven't stopped crying or shaking for days. If you donated for her wheelchair GoFundMe, I'll be putting that towards her celebration of life arrangements. Please donate to the GoFundMe as things are moving quickly. I'm handling my emotions, my mom's care decisions, and trying to still care for my horses and animals and deal with this situation. I'm sorry. I'll keep everyone posted on what's happening. Thank you, everyone, for your support through these last two years. They have been so hard. I've learned so much. Maybe that was her last lesson, how to do it on my own, and now she knows I can.

She's still in Westchester ICU and will remain there until she's ready. I'll update as time tells us.

“After the storm of grief, I realize that true strength lies not in not feeling pain, but in learning to live with it.” The absence of a loved one leaves a void that can never be filled, but it also teaches us to appreciate the fragility and beauty of life. In the silence of loss, we discover that love does not die, but transforms into a memory that accompanies us forever. And though the pain is intense, it is also a reminder of the depth of our love.