Help Me Say Goodbye


I was unsure what photo to upload here as we have many lovely photos as a family but this image is the best way I could introduce you to me and why I am so very desperate for help!

My name is Peter Crocetti, I am a 52 year old Dad of 9 children, Granddad to 14 ( #15 is due may 1st but I will be long gone before he makes his way into this world ) and a Husband to the most Beautiful, Kind and Caring Soul that I have ever known...............and I am Dying!!

The above image was a Bone Scan taken back in June of 2017 when I was diagnosed with Stage 4 (T4) Prostate Cancer with a Gleason score of (9/10) the higher the score out of 10 the more aggressive the Cancer. Mine had metastasised, which means it had spread beyond the Prostate and mine had spread to the Lymph Nodes, Bones and Bone Marrow. What your looking at is my initial scan photo, the left is a front view  and the right a rear view of my skeletal system, the Dark/Black areas you see is where I have (had as it has over the course of the last 18 months spread further) concentrations of Cancer in my Bones. I was give 3 months to 18 months to live, To fast forward, today the hospital this Monday (January 14th 2019) cesased all treatment and have handed me over to the palliative care team of a local hospice to manage my pain and comfort, the indications are that I will not see my 1st wedding anniversary on March 7th, although we have been together for almost 16 years last March I did the decent thing and made her my wife, 5 days later my younger brother collapsed and died from hypertensive heart failure.........................I vowed my mum (aged 72) would not loose 2 sons in the same year and so I fought with every fibre of my being to cling on to life and fight my heart out.............. Having made it into 2019 I kept that promise!! So why this page, why do I need Help?
Getting Cancer crippled us financially, I was unable to work and as a result lost our family business and then in order to pay off our creditors and stave off Bankruptcy we used our life savings and even that was not enough, we negotiated payment plans with those left that we owed. The financial burdens of a terminal illness and my wife having to give up work for all but one 10hr shift a week to become my carer we have struggled but through the struggles, the pain and heartache we have clung to each other and smiled our way thru. My Wife is heart broken as are my children the youngest being just 12 and don't want to lose me and I have fought so very hard to stay because I don't want to leave them. All time allowed us was to prepare and try to build memories and that we have done to the best of our ability. I am so scared at how she will cope with my loss, how she will struggle as she goes forward alone doing her best to be ok. This page is my last effort to do something for those I love, the task is mamouth and the doctors say I have weeks rather than months but I am a Fighter, it's all I know and giving up is not in my DNA.

In considering the things that I would like to do I had to keep it real and I have asked for nothing for myself other than YOUR help!
I have asked for £3,800 so here is the breakdown of how I came to that figure:
£2,000 for me to leave for my wife in an envelope to be handed to her after the funeral (Luckily I had taken out a funeral Plan when I turned 50, probably the most sensible thing I have ever done, so she will not be faced with heavy funeral costs and I have also arranged every detail myself to ease the burden upon her further) this will give her enough money to get through the 1st month without me; it will take care of all the bills for that period thus allowing her time and space in which to grieve.
£300 for a weekend away just the two of us by the sea in Cornwall the place we went for our honeymoon this should cover fuel and cottage rental, who needs spending money when you have a real fire and a Sofa to cuddle up on lol.
£500 For Christina ( the wife ) to take our 2 youngest children away for a long weekend at Butlins (a family favourite) so they can at some point in the months following my death go to a place where we have great memories and learn to laugh again.

IF WE ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO ACHIEVE AND SURPASS OUR TARGET I WILL GET THE HALLWAY, STAIRS AND LANDING DECORATED AND RE-CARPETED FOR CHRISTINA. ANY SURPLUS WILL BE DONATED TO DEMELZA CHILDRENS HOSPICE IN KENT!

As you can see there is nothing outrageous on the List, it humbles me beyond words that I have to reach out and rely on the goodwill and generosity of others, had I more time I would of sorted all this myself but time is a commodity denied. Your Help would mean more to me than I have the words to express. I don't want Christina to know about this page as she would tell me to take it down she is a very Proud and Beautiful person so if you know her please say nothing about this page don't put any posts about it on Social Media, this is truly the last thing I can do for my angel and my children and wished to god there was another way but like I said time is against me.

Anything you can donate no matter how seemingly small will be great and if you can share this page with your friends and family, If my story has touched you or if I have been there for you, helped and supported you I ask now that you support me.

God Bless
Peter xx