Hello, my name's Miguel, I'm from Portugal. Online people know me as EritoKaio.

I'm creating this GoFundMe to basically "borrow some time" until I can get back on my feet and find some work to sustain myself.

To explain the situation:

I'm a 3D artist, I also do graphic design and video editing, I was "supposed" to be working on a motion graphics project but for several months the client who was supposed to give me a contract has not replied at all no matter who or when or how many times I messaged. The person who gave me this opportunity was also a long time friend who equally went unresponsive.

I'm currently applied to a few jobs but I can't really rely on them going forward in time for when I need to have things paid.

I currently live with my uncle and grandma and we split the expenses, I only need to give 300 Euros a month (on the 5th).

We're in a situation where if I am to miss a payment we simply can not pay our expenses. We already save wherever possible.

Now to tell you more about myself, most people probably know me mostly from making 3D renders in the past for the Spaceflight community, more specifically about SpaceX's Starship.

Due to burnout from 3D work in previous contracts I stopped creating those renders for a while and I'm slowly regaining some interest, but because I am so focused on trying to get work and other personal projects I haven't done much of it lately.

Some in the community may also recognize a design I created for a shirt used in a Starship animation by a group of artists in the community. The photo below is the original test print for the shirt.

I was also briefly working on Kerbal Space Program mods, again, based on Starship. I have been patiently waiting for Kitten Space Agency to be developed as I intend to make mods for it in the future, but that's still a long ways out.

Something else I do more recently is Content Creation on YouTube in the Sim Racing space, I've always loved racing, watch every F1 race since 2022 and somewhat keep up with WEC and IMSA. So I made racing videos on my main YT channel @EritoKaio.

I also make content in other games like Genshin Impact and Arknights Endfield on my secondary channel @EritoPlays.

Both of these channels are just a side thing and is used as my way to keep my video editing skills fresh. BUT I also wanted to do it to try and develop my social skills, I even decided to start using a webcam instead of hiding from everything.

All of my personal adventures are also supported through Patreon. You can always support there as an alternative.

I've already put my VR headset on sale to make enough to pay next month, but if nothing improves I will also have to sell my Sim Racing gear(wheel, pedals, etc), which would just be throwing money out since these things will never sell for their original price. And also throwing my favorite hobbies out the window..

I also have basically no active subscriptions anywhere, my own personal expenses (excluding rent) is just 10 euros a month for YT Premium because I hate ads and use the platform extensively as background noise.

So if you can't help directly, you can recommend me to anyone who needs either a Video Editor or 3D Artist. I can do Graphic Design though I don't really consider that my main thing and don't feel my skill are good enough.

I can always do some demo work for anyone who wants to check what I can do. And I'm always looking to improve to satisfy the needs.

You can use this spreadsheet to check some of my favorite video editing work.

Above is all the most important things you need to know, but if you care, below I will put the "extended" version of events that lead to where I am now.

Originally I had a different GoFundMe that I quickly shut down because it just felt like a stretch. I wanted to eventually start a tech hardware repair shop because I love tinkering with things, but I'm just not in a situation I can deal with it on my own or have the space to even start. With the tech space getting ever more expensive, I thought prolonging people's devices lives would be a good move, and would also help lower the amount of e-waste.

I've always been a very shy and socially anxious person ever since I was a child. I was bullied often which made me close myself up a lot by just staying away from everyone. And that has really slowed down my social skills. I am going to be 31 this coming September and I'm still generally afraid of people. I have improved a lot, like I said, me making videos and occasional streams on YouTube/Twitch has helped me open up a little more, and I do have a few friends online that help with that.

But because all my life I've avoided people, I never build any contacts I can use to get work, its my biggest struggle, I just simply don't know how to deal with it. I've always also been quite disconnected with my family (I can count with one hand how many times i talk to either of my parents in a year), so getting contacts from that is also really difficult. Or its something I have literally no knowledge or ability to do.

I've always been incredibly lucky with my online friends giving or finding me commissions and that's what has sustained me for years. But I've reached a point where I haven't been able to find anything anymore, or I've been lied to about jobs, which is the case I explained at the top.

I don't have a drivers license, I don't have a car, I barely even have my own room, I share a bedroom with my grandma. My PC/SimRig is in the living room and that's basically where all my life is.

Because of my personality I've done everything I've learned on my own to try and make ends meet without the help of anyone IRL, by using the things I love to make videos, learn 3D, graphics etc. And unfortunately success has never gazed upon me, maybe I just didn't put enough work into the hobbies I share. I knew this was the reality, but I still wanted to give it a try because I thought that was my only escape instead of facing the world that I deemed cruel since childhood.

I sincerely apologize for everything, for not being "normal" and being both scared and stubborn trying to live my life my way.

Thank you for reading this far. It already means a lot to me.

I failed to reach my dreams. For now.