Out of work & mental health crisis, pls help

(content warning, suicidal ideation)

Hello, my name is Jessica, my pronouns are she/her, and like a lot of y’all I have had a terrible last few years.

I’m gonna go broad strokes, because there’s a lot and it’s all very sad. I lost my main source of income in 2020, and I still haven’t managed to rebound. Additionally, in February of 2021 I admitted myself to the hospital because I was suicidal. My mental health has continued to be in a bad state throughout this entire year. Several times I’ve considered going back to the hospital, most recently the week between Halloween and November 7th.

Returning to work is, at baseline, very difficult in this post-pandemic world. It’s made even worse by my mental health issues making it nearly impossible to function in any meaningful way. But all of that is made even worse by the fact that poverty is not just something you can work real hard and escape easily. Poverty begets poverty. When you don’t have money, needed car repairs become bigger car troubles down the line. The credit card bill you can’t pay off becomes additional interest. All of a sudden, you can’t get to work because you don’t have enough money in your bank account to buy a [train] ticket to work. Or you can’t apply to jobs because your laptop is dead and you don’t have the money to fix it.

These are all things that have happened or almost happened to me this year, by the way. I’m not just pulling those out of my ass. That’s real. That’s real life.

People don’t understand that. People like to act like, “oh, you don’t have money, why don’t you just try working?” Fact is, you do need some money, and some resources, and some stability to go to work and be functional at your job, and work enough to make a living. And the extent of my mental health issues and my financial troubles is ultimately impacting my ability to go back to work.

So. I need help. And, I am turning to you, internet. (god help me)

This is my gofundme. My goal is $20,000.

Any amount of money helps. And seriously, I’m so grateful for any donations, whatever amount. But if I can reach my goal of $20,000, I will be so much better off then I amj now. I can catch up on the debt I’ve accrued over this year, and be ready when I have to start paying back debt on my student loans at the beginning of next year. I can secure housing for myself in two and a half months, when my lease is up. I’ll have access to better options for how to handle my ongoing mental health crisis.

$20,000 would help me get a new phone. And I am pretty sure this one electrocutes me every time I charge it now.

I can also get new clothes for the first time in like two years. I also need a new mattress. This one has a suspicious stain on it, it was there before it was my mattress.

Essentially, all of this is with the intention of getting myself to a place of stability. I haven’t been stable in really any part of my life in a while, and I want to get there again. I want to lay a solid foundation for my life now, so that if I ever have a crisis like this again I’ll be better equipped to handle it.

Thank you for your consideration. Any amount helps. Please help me beat this and stay alive.