Our dearest Michelle
Michelle’s brother, Lane, an eight year old German Shepard was always by her side. He loved her, and he watched over her with love. He was there at the smallest movement or sounds from her. Lane has never showed a shred of aggression toward anyone in his life. He was a big, curious, goofy child.
On October 26, 2020 at 3:00 am we awoke to a panicked, scared Lane and our baby... Lane had heard her crying and tried to bring her to us. He was trying to help, but sadly, her delicate little body could not take the move. I, the father, explained to him that we were not angry with him but there are consequences for everything in life; even accidents. He was euthanized. We are not angry, we are not in a rage. What happened was purely an accident
Words can not explain the pain. Words can not explain feelings we have. We are strong and we have the best support we could have ever asked for. We’re not sure what to do now but we do know we have to proceed with this process; we need to bury our daughter.
Prayers, love, and any other form of support is all we could ever ask for right now.
Michelle Ocean Rae Carr
September 1st, 2020
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October 26th, 2020
Rest in peace, Angel.
”You take my heart with
you when you go.”
Adam &Tori Carr
from mama:
my dearest Michelle, I am lost. I am broken. I cannot understand. I don’t know how to go on, you are my life. My world. My purpose. I never knew why I was here, until you. My baby girl. My sweet, perfect, little girl. I couldn’t go a second without you.Last night, your father And I slept for the first time without you in our room, our bed. I couldn’t touch my nose to your head. I was covered in your blankets, your daddy slept on your boppy. It was not enough. It will never be enough. I could not wait till you told me you loved me back. I wanted to know your voice. I wanted you to spend the rest of your life in my arms. I spoke to your father “do you think she’ll ever understand how much we love her?” He always replied, “how could she not?” And I know you know. I know you feel I would lay down my life for you, I would take any amount of torture, to protect you.
i want to sit and watch you grow, braid your hair. See if your eyes turned from blue, to green, like your daddy’s. I just knew you would be right next to me until the day I died. Every parent has nightmares like this. I never thought I would awake to mine. We never could have known. Therewas no inkling. No sign. No thought. I don’t care what anyone says, I will forever blame myself. I am your mother. Your protector. And I couldn’t, protect you. Never for a second, did we leave you. Never for a second did we not have you right next to us. You were like our glue. You showed usthe purpose to life. The purest love. The forever love. I will forever be broken, you took my heart baby and I don’t want it back. Keep it with you. Forever.
I love you, bunches, to death, bunches.
xoxo
-mama
My name is Adam Carr, Michelle is my daughter. My wife, Tori, is Michelle’s Mother. We are from Hampton Virginia.
We are raising funds to cover costs of our daughters funeral, time off work, to keep our roof over our head, counseling, and a million other obvious reasons. We would love keepsakes of our daughter as well. Gofundme has requested we explain more in detail our purpose of this fundraiser, so this is an unexpected update. We cannot imagine not being together to help eachother through this unimaginable time.
All funds will be transferred to our bank account to be used for above stated items
