But after talking with some close friends, they've convinced me that it is something that has to be done, and that I shouldn't be ashamed to be doing so.
October 1, 2014 I lost the job I'd had for almost 16 years. Things were already extremely tight for us, but we were making it. I even started doing Uber to supplement what I already had coming in, so things were starting to look good.
Then I got fired. It wasn't on my day off, and I wasn't stealing boxes.
I played it off for a long as I could, acting as if nothing happened. Only a few people knew I didn't have a real job. It was business as usual for me on Twitter. It's not like it's everybody's business what my employment status was, but I still felt like a bum for not waking up every morning to clock into a job. I guess I'd been conditioned to connect my job to my self-worth, and now I see that wasn't right for me to do. I know it's why I've been way more depressed than usual, and why I've disconnected from social media to be all in my feelings. But no matter how I "feel" about things, this world moves on, and bills gotta get paid.
And as much as I try, they haven't been.
I have some landlords who know my situation, and have really bent over backward to help me during this time. They have been patient with me as I tried to find other work. But they can only do so much, and I understand.
So during this time, I have fallen behind $5k in rent. 10 days ago, they told me I have 30 days to either come up with the money or move.
My kids love it here. They are really the reason my friends convinced me this is something I HAVE to do, and put my pride aside. If it were just me, I could live in a refrigerator box on the Cumberland ,and be fine with it until I could do better. For REAL. But I don't want them to suffer because of me. All their friends are in this neighborhood and in their schools. This is HOME for them, and I have to do whatever I can to ensure that it remains to be that for them.
So I'm just asking for a little help from a lot of people. I know it's hard out there for a lot of you right now, so I totally understand if you can't do anything. I just ask that you share this so that I can hopefully keep this house. I don't want to leave. I don't have anywhere else to go anyway.
Thank you for reading this.
P.S. In the meantime, I'll be out here driving people around in my car like I'm Morgan Freeman in Driving Miss Daisy.
- Julia R.
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- Chris McKissic
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