
Support Chewy through her stay at Children's Hospital
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Watching your child battle for their life is absolutely terrifying. Watching them fight that battle against their own will to live is absolutely heartbreaking. Please read our story and consider helping my little family get through one of the hardest things we've ever had to go through.
*Trigger warning! There is a lot of troubling information in this post and I want to be sensitive to anyone who struggles with trauma.*
My daughter "Chewy," who just turned 14, was sexually abused and trafficked along with her sister and another child when she was 4 years old by a female babysitter.
Charges were filed, but a proper investigation was never completed even though the detective assigned to the case was provided all of the information he needed in order to collect evidence. He never even interviewed the perpetrator, as she said she "wouldn't speak to him without her attorney." He never followed up, and charges were then dropped by the district attorney for "lack of evidence."
Fast forward to approximately two months ago. Chewy was out at a hotel swimming pool with her sister and a couple of friends and had met another group of kids and were all hanging out.
One of the boys in the group happened to have the same name as the boy she was abused with, and even though at the time she didn't remember that was his name, "something" about him sent her spiraling down a dark hole she couldn't climb out of.
My baby girl had to be admitted to Children's Hospital 6 weeks ago after having a PTSD attack that caused her to both physically and emotionally shut down. She didn't say a word to either me or her sister, embarrassed about the sudden blast of nonstop flashbacks and nightmares she was having. She thought she could deal with them on her own and they'd go away on their own. They didn't. She couldn't. She stopped eating, stopped sleeping, all while faking a smile for two weeks. She became sick and suicidal and attempted to take her own life. Twice, before finally asking for help. I'm so proud of her for gaining the courage and strength to finally come to me and so, so grateful she did.
She has been a patient in Children's Hospital for 5 of the last 6 weeks, outpatient for the past week, and now unfortunately it's looking like we're going to have to go back inpatient. In addition to the medical issues she's still having, she's struggling mentally so much. The flashbacks and nightmares have barely subsided, and while her psychologist and psychiatrist are working on getting her medication levels in check to help fight this, my girl is trying to hold on when all she wants to do is give up just to escape her own mind.
Her older sisters and I are doing everything we can to be here for her and help her get better, but everything is getting really hard after 6 weeks.
We set up the GoFundMe to help with expenses because everything has been up in the air and all over the place, there's a chance she'll have to go to another state for treatment in a couple of weeks. I've had to be at the hospital with her every day, sometimes going back and forth 3 times a day. Besides just visiting and being with her, there is constantly a meeting with someone from her care team, a nurse that needs to speak to me or a class I need to attend, so I had to take a semester off school, haven't been able to work during this time and my savings are gone. Gracie and I are having a lot of trouble making it day to day right now, and it's making a stressful situation so much worse. Any help, no matter how small, would be so appreciated and would take so much stress off of my shoulders. We appreciate the ones who have already helped along the way, we are so grateful to you for helping us get by this far.
I don't want to lose my baby to suicide and I don't know how to parent in this situation. I'm a complete wreck, terrified, and easing even a little of our financial burden would give me peace of mind to be able to be the best support I can for her as well as learn everything I can during our time here to be able to help her once she's stable.
I'm a single parent that doesn't receive any support from the girls' father or anyone in his family, and I have a very small support system. I'm hoping this reaches others out there who have maybe been through the same thing and might be willing to help.
Please consider helping my little family during one of the hardest and scariest times of our lives. I will update on her as we go. Thank you for reading.
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Julie Suazo
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Aurora, CO