Pay for Top Surgery

Hi!

My name is Caro! I'm a disabled queer trans/nonbinary person living in San Francisco.

I'm unemployed at the moment so I don't have the ability to save up for anything, especially for top surgery (double mastectomy).

I have felt different my whole life. I knew that I was not like my counterparts in elementary, middle and high school in Texas. For as long as I can remember, I haven't felt "one" with my body especially when I started to grow breasts. From the age of 12, my breasts have felt alien to me. During the pandemic, I discovered the name of what I was feeling: gender dysphoria. It's only been a couple of years since I realized I was transgender/non-binary and since then, the presence of my breasts is becoming a significant hindrance to my living. They took a huge toll on my mental and physical life. I have considered getting a chest binder to ease my gender dysphoria, but I have quite big breasts that don't fit most if not all chest binders. Even with a binder, I would not be able to hide or press down my breasts to the point where my chest is flat. People have suggested that I get a chest reduction and then I could use a binder to get a flatter appearance. Unfortunately, no doctor will touch me due to my size. I am fat and I have no desire to lose weight. I am quite happy with my size, and a chest reduction would require me to lose weight. With the risk of my eating disorder, I feel that diet would harm me more in many ways. With top surgery, I would be able to have surgery despite my size and I have chosen a doctor that has worked with fat folx before.

This surgery would save my life to be very frank. I don't want to keep waking up in a reality where I can't look in the mirror and not feel disgusted at what I see. I am also getting more and more scared that I will not be able to get gender-affirming care in the future due to the horrific anti-trans legislation going around in the United States.

The breakdown is I need $1000 to secure a surgery date, $8000 for the actual surgery and other fees, and $1000 to help me pay for my living costs while I'm recovering.

I don't want to ask for help. I hate that just trying to exist how I am, costs thousands of dollars but here we are. Thank you for reading my story and helping me. There is nothing I can do that will repay the kindness that you have given me. Thank you again❤️