I just have to say that this is very difficult for me to do as I'm not one to ask for help as I'm usually the one that tries to help others whichever way I can; but this time I can't keep from asking and have to swallow my pride and ask for some much needed assistance. Last year in June I lost the love of my life to a horrible disease, diabetes, and I miss him every day.  We tried our best to fight the disease, but it finally took it's toll on his body and I lost him.  Since his passing I've had it pretty rough trying to fight off depression, make ends meet, keep our house, plus take care of our two dogs and my older brother who was sent to live with us four years ago after living on the streets for quite a few years and various health issues of his own; I really don't know how I did it, but somehow I was able to keep a roof over our heads and keep us fed, until now.  Over the past several months I've had to make the difficult decisions as to which bills to pay, which ones to hold off on and which ones to make partial payments and had to make a decision as to if I really needed any of my medications; because my paycheck would only go so far.  This method had worked for a while, but it has now all piled up on me that I can't do this any longer and depression is getting more difficult to fend off.    Then as if this wasn't bad enough, this past Friday, 05/04/18 my 2010 Chevy Impala decided it no longer wanted to go forward as it would only operate in reverse and I found out today that the transmission needed to be either totally overhauled or replaced and this is my only mode of transportation to and from work.  The estimate I was given for the cost of repairing the car was from $3,000 - $3,400, which only added to the financial mess that I'm in. I know there might be a few reading this wondering if I'm just looking for a handout or that I want others to pay my bills, because I was irresponsible; but that isn't the case.   I made adult decisions when David was in need of healthcare and then other decisions after, which I do not regret.   I do continue to work full time, plus even run deliveries for Postmates which is an online delivery service during the evenings after I get off from my regular day job in order to earn extra money to pay bills and buy food, but it just isn't enough.   I've tried applying for a personal loan with several different financial institutions, but with my credit being so horrible with all the medical bills I owe and continue to pay on; I was denied. I know that my asking for $6,000 seems like a lot, but that will only cover the cost to repair my car and just barely get me back on track with everything else (mortgage, utilities, etc.);  so I can't be greedy when I'm asking for assistance. I pray and hope that you can find it in your heart to help, but if you can't I totally understand and I'm just thankful that you took the time to read this. Sincerely, Rojelio aka Roger