Hi my name is bri. I'm here to ask for help in regards to my newborn son benny. He's now 3 months old but our story begins 9 months ago in August 2022. I found out I was pregnant a month prior. Bennys Dad and I were so excited. We planned to move in with my family as I was seriously ill thru the whole pregnancy and unable to work. On August 19 2022 we were waiting in a parking garage for my dad to meet us n help us get all my stuff from los angeles to the bay area. It was really early in the morning so no one was around. His father offered me a neck massage to relax while we waited. He tilted my head to the side and proceeded to stab me over 35 times mostly to the brain face and neck but also my chest shoulders spine stomach arms. He crushed my skull and left 4 mm of the pocket knife as a souvenir lodged in my left temple. To make sure we didn't survive he also shit my throat from my windpipe to my spine. I couldn't breath and everything went black. Somehow I woke up to find myself crawling to my car. My puppy had jumped out to attack him which gave me enough time to get in the car. My puppy refused to stop saving me and I had to leave immediately as I couldn't breath with a collapsed lung. I drove 6 blocks begging for help before anyone acknowledged me or my white car covered in blood. I'm unable to work due to ptsd and the brain trauma I sustained. Benny n I were not supposed to live lapd said it was one of the most brutal attacks they ever seen someone live from. All this at 3 months pregnant. Due to the unborn child I was only given Tylenol and endured thru everything in hopes of meeting the son I had always dreamed of. Now he's here and I'm unable to provide him with anything that isn't given to us by ebt or wic. We don't have enough for rent or gas to dr appts. I've spent the months since living on couches at rat and roach infested hoarder houses. Now the baby is here and that isn't an option. My father used his entire life savings the last 3 months getting us safe fed clean and warm but benny and again have no way to get income still. Please help me give my baby the life he deserves. God saved us for a reason and we are so grateful but I need to be able to give him a good home and find a way to recover so I can be the mom he deserves. I never want him to think he's the reason I struggle so I need to do better for him but I can't focus on that when I don't know how we are going to pay any bills.