Needing Help Alleviating Financial Burdens And Leaving

My name is Dismal online to most, but to those around me, it’s Micaela. I hope you will read through my situation and consider donating if you can afford it. If you cannot donate, please do not feel bad or force yourself to donate, I would hate to take you down sinking with me.

I need to move out of the place I am staying at. It’s a rented home. One that I have been living in and out of for the last 5 years fresh out of high school when I moved to this state from my hometown. I have lived with my family, both having to move due to horrible issues involving abuse whether that be directed at me or others and just overall trouble that I did not want to involve myself in. That being said, I have been distancing myself from the members of my family that live around here and yet they show up because they know where I live. There have been instances of them banging on the door and threatening to call the police on me and my two roommates for no reason. Even when I lived in my previous apartment they would show up and harass me.

Either way, I have been living in houses/basements by the same landlord. There is so much more to do with the living situation as of recent times but I do not want to go into heavy depths of it. I just need to move somewhere else. It’s uncomfortable here for us, and for me personally my mental health has been at an all time low.

For months I have been waiting for financial help with nothing answered. It has now officially been over a year of me in the process of trying to get financial help. I have reached out to countless people and resources and none of them have been able to help me personally or with the process of the appeal I had sent in during December. Originally I had applied in July of 2024. There has been no word since and it is stuck. I am not physically able to drive or hold a job right now with my only income being art. The money I get in goes right to rent, bills, food, and gas to my appointments which my roommate takes me to. As of right now, I have tried to save but to no success. I have no savings, no family, and no backup. As much as I hate to admit it, every day is a severe mental struggle for me to even get out of bed. I want to give up. Sometimes I get a second wind, but it’s so hard when literally everything goes down the drain.

I had a plan to try and start my life with the financial help from what I’ve applied to but of course that hasn’t happened at all.

My mental health resources also recommend programs to me that I cannot attend without financial assistance and spare time. I had it wrapped into my plan for when I was to start my life for real, but it hasn’t started yet either.

My goal here is to get money for several months rent (with the average here being from 900-1,200 a month just about for a one bedroom), enough to get my cat to the vet (since I have not had the ability to get him there since he got fixed years ago and he needs to be registered), enough for some food, and whatever else may come. Between how many months I will be able to pay, I hope to be able to get my financial aid or at least build up some small savings. I really hope to move before the winter months, but getting a place is very tough especially with no prior credit and I refuse to declaw my cat since I deem it inhumane. It’s also tough just because of how high the rent is. I just want to be able to actually start or want to live my life.

I need at least ~$3,000 or ~$2,700 before I can really even start going to places because most of the time they don’t accept people who have no ‘stable’ income or credit score. So my best bet is to have the deposit and a couple months rent in advance…I’ve tried to get places before and they are very finicky…

If you can share this around, please try. I really want to get things together for the first time in my 24 years and shake off my family if I can in the process. The goal I have put is a stretch goal, but anything helps…

If you need to contact me on social media with questions or words of support, feel free. I will update this when I can if there is any update to share.

I just really need some help right now because it is extremely difficult to navigate and do everything on your own..

A genuine thank you to anyone who donates…I hope this marks the start of something new.