Aloha All.

Thank you so much for stopping by my fund and making me a part of your day.

If you know me, you know I hate asking for help. But when that is your only option, you have to remind yourself that there are good, even great, people out there that will care. You just have to ask.

I have just enough faith to start this fund and ask.

I am at a point in my life where I am without a home. Yes, it is absolutely painful to say but I am homeless. This past November 3rd (my shitty ass birthday), marks 4 months. Yay! Happy Life! Amazing shit! This is exactly where I want to be in life! If you could not tell I am being sarcastic. Life can suck a big donkey penis right now. Pardon my language.

*sigh*

Imagine this:

You work hard, really hard, as a delivery driver (10 -12 hour days) to pay $2000 in rent in a so called trendy neighborhood (North Park/South Park ) in San Diego. You are a great neighbor and are able to live in peace for a year and a half.

At some point after the year and a half, you are racially profiled, harassed, discriminated and retaliated against at multiple businesses you shop at for a living. This changes the trajectory of your finances and mental health. So much so that you fall behind with rent.

Your once nice owner/landlord completely and utterly goes from a sweet man to a MAGA supporting crackpot that harasses and berates you on multiple occasions. The worst part was him inciting 4 of your neighbors to treat you like a brown piece of asian shit. While going through the process of an Unlawful Detainer (eviction) your neighbors are harassing you and say things like, "move you f*cking bitch" on your camera and/or to your face. As well as, "you will not get peace till you pay your rent". Mind you, these are neighbors I said "hello", "have a great day" and "good morning" to, all the time. Neighbors I was friends with. Neighbors who I would buy Filipino pastries for and drop off at their door.

*hangs head low*

There were two other Unlawful detainers on the property. Both of those cases involved men, and no one decided to make their lives a living hell while going through the legal process. My neighbors chose to harass and retaliate against me because of my gender, because I am single with no children and because I am asian. They called the police on me 7 times just to be harassing. Yes 7 times. That was not traumatizing at all. Two of them also decided to stalk my personal Instagram profile and started to contact people I know to harass me further. I had to file a restraining order on them to get them to stop.

Racial profiling, harassing, discriminatory and retaliatory behavior. This has been my life. Now add homelessness.

With in the first few weeks of being homeless, I reached out to a so called friend. I was severely depressed and just needed someone in person to talk to. May be even a hug. During the few hours that I spent with this friend I realized what an utter jackass he is. Asking me questions like, when was the last time you took a shower, while putting his head near my clavicle and chest, sniffing me and saying, you don't smell like a homeless person. Thank you for that. That made me feel amazing. He did offer for me to take a shower at his place. We set a day and he text me on that day. His text read, Yo, and that was it. No, are you going to come by? No, you are more than welcome. No, I hope you are doing well. No, checking in. No nothing. He never followed through or contacted me again. I love that. That definitely made me want to ask for help from others.

He did take me out for a couple drinks the night we met and made sure to tell me how much he spent. That was amazing!

Since living in San Diego I have been attacked twice. The first time was two days before Christmas where I was bum rushed from the side for just mentioning to someone they hit my car and the second time was in the "trendy" neighborhood where I lived. That time I was spit on by a young man and attacked from behind by his girlfriend. A whole bunch of bridge and tunnel onlookers from City Tacos came over to, quote on quote "help" then proceeded to yell at me and tell me to give the car keys back to my attackers. so they can leave. They also yelled at me to "get out of here!" It was my neighborhood and I did not even do anything wrong. No one asked me if I was ok. No one even called the authorities or even stayed around as witnesses. There were at least 20 people there. Then when everyone went back across the street to City Tacos, someone laughed at me for being attacked.

These are just a few stories of horrible things that have happened to me since living here. It is so saddening and depressing. I feel like I am in a mind bending ground hog day that I cannot get out of. Help me get out of this ground hog day nightmare, please.

My prayer list:

• Some Aloha.
• Kind words.
• To pay my storage so my things do not get auctioned off.
• To fix my car so I can drive to be with my family for the holidays.
• A good night's rest.
• A birthday dinner, such as pizza and and ice cream cake.
• To move my things and find a new home.
• a repost maybe
• World peace.
• For ICE agents to stop breaking the law.
• For Americans to get their SNAP benefits so no one is struggling for the holidays.
• For all humans to be able to eat.
• For humans to stop polluting the ocean.
• For humans to be kind to one another.
• To have the capacity to do free comedy shows for the seniors
• For men to respect women.
• To help people exist when the world makes them feel invisible. I see you.

Again I just want to thank you for stopping by my fund and considering me for a donation, a kind word or a repost.

May your holidays be filled with love, laughter, kindness and peace.

Sincerest Aloha,

Nova

Remember to check on your people. The ones always smiling for you, laughing with you, the ones that always seem like they do not need anyone. The ones that always seem like they have it all together. Everyone needs someone to check on them. The most depressed people usually do not tell anyone. Sending you Aloha with all of my heart if you need it today, tomorrow or any day.